Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss

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Ep 169. The Energetics of Grief, How to Heal and Keep Going, with Jade Donegan

Sun, 05 Apr 2026 19:00:00 GMT

This week, Ash sits down with principal consultant and founder of the Energy Collective Co, Jade Donegan, to explore what it really means to care for your inner world while navigating the demands of work, family, and grief. Jade shares how her spirituality helped her to navigate the profound rupture of losing her dad, a loss that reshaped how she sees life, love, and success.

She opens up about her journey through grief and forgiveness, the unexpected signs she still receives from her father, and the emotional toll of trying to keep going when your heart is somewhere else. Ash and Jade dive into the importance of emotional health at work, the need for accountability in professional spaces, and how understanding our own energy can change the way we lead, collaborate, and show up for the people around us.

Throughout their conversation, Jade reflects on the transformative power of practices like Reiki, and how they’ve helped her build self-awareness, soften self-judgment, and create workplaces where wellbeing is taken seriously. Together, they talk about moving through emotions rather than getting stuck in them, and the courage it takes to let yourself feel everything without shutting down.

At its heart, this episode is an invitation to meet yourself with empathy whether you’re sitting in grief, in transition, or in growth. You’ll walk away with insights on how to build a life and career that honour both your humanity and your healing.

Episode Chapters:

00:00 Introduction to Retreats and Personal Growth

01:51 Meet Jade Donegan: A Journey of Transformation

04:04 Daily Life and Finding Joy in Learning

08:10 The Move to New Zealand: A Family Adventure

11:32 Hiding Behind a Smile: The Impact of Grief

19:06 Navigating Grief: A Personal Story of Loss

23:44 Navigating Numbness and Helplessness

24:26 The Journey of Forgiveness

25:55 A Life-Changing Accident

28:20 Empathy and Forgiveness in Grief

29:36 Signs from Beyond

36:50 The Power of Reiki

43:03 Workplace Wellbeing and Accountability

You can connect with Jade using the links below:

http://www.energycollectiveco.com.au/

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⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

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Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

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Ep 168. Alcohol-Induced Vomiting, The Radical Therapy That Got Ian Fee Sober

Sun, 29 Mar 2026 18:00:00 GMT

This week, Ash sits down with sobriety advocate, author, and entrepreneur, Ian Fee, for a conversation that challenges everything you think you know about recovery.

After 34 years of heavy drinking, Ian reached a point where he was willing to try anything to get sober. What followed was one of the most confronting decisions of his life, undergoing 10 days of radical aversion therapy designed to make alcohol physically repulsive.

Ian shares what it was really like inside that experience, including daily alcohol-induced vomiting, sedatives and intense therapy. This was the doorway that led him to sobriety and the opportunity to rebuild his life. From losing almost everything to slowly repairing, Ian opens up about healing relationships, restoring self-respect, and learning how to live day by day without escaping himself.

Along with losing 85 pounds, Ian has formed a whole new identity and now lives a life that is full of gratitude, purpose and meaning.

Episode chapters:

00:00 Introduction to Ian Fee's Journey

06:11 The Impact of Sobriety on Daily Life

12:53 Reflections on Family and Presence

18:57 The Evolution of Drinking Habits

21:00 Turning Point: Aversion Therapy Experience

23:37 Exploring Aversion Therapy for Sobriety

26:00 The Turning Point: Realizing the Need for Change

28:31 The Shift in Relationships and Support Systems

32:02 Finding Purpose Through Storytelling

33:04 Building a Foundation for Recovery

38:12 Healing Relationships with Children

40:47 Non-Negotiables for a Happy Life

You can connect with Ian using the links below:

Website: makeitgreat.me

LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ian-fee-6391b112/

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/people/Make-It-Great/100034784122106/

Link to Book: https://www.amazon.com/Wild-Ride-Sobriety-Transformation-Oblivion/dp/B0DHYR1YST/

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

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Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

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Ep 167. I’ll Try Anything Twice: Recovering from Depression and Addiction, with Carly Schwartz

Sun, 22 Mar 2026 18:00:00 GMT

This week, Ash sits down with Carly Schwartz, author of I’ll Try Anything Twice, to talk about what it really looks like to live through the darkest corners of your own mind and make it out the other side. Carly traces her journey from childhood anxiety to years of depression, substance use, and suicidal ideation, sharing the moments of denial, fear, and quiet desperation that shaped her path.

She opens up about the turning point of finally naming her addiction and the life-changing experience of going to rehab, not as a neat overnight fix, but as the beginning of a very human, very imperfect recovery. Ash and Carly explore the messy middle of healing: the shame that keeps us silent, the relief of being truly seen, and the deep importance of community and storytelling in breaking through isolation.

Throughout their conversation, Carly reflects on what it means to personalise recovery rather than squeeze it into a one-size-fits-all mold. She speaks to the need for flexibility, self-acceptance, and learning to listen to your own needs as they evolve over time. At its heart, this episode is a testament to resilience and connection, a reminder that while recovery is rarely linear, it is always possible, especially when we’re willing to tell the truth, reach out, and let others walk beside us.

Episode chapters:

00:00 Introduction to Carly Schwartz and Her Journey

11:03 The Struggles Behind the Smile

17:09 Childhood Anxiety and Early Signs of Depression

23:20 The Dark Side of Substance Use and Suicidal Ideation

28:26 The Struggle with Substance Use and Denial

32:03 The Turning Point: Seeking Help and Going to Rehab

37:00 Building a New Life in Recovery

45:27 Personalizing Recovery: Finding What Works

51:03 The Power of Community in Recovery

Support Services

If this conversation has brought anything up for you, please know you don’t have to go through it alone. Support is always available. You can reach out to Lifeline on 13 11 14 for 24/7 crisis support, Beyond Blue on 1300 22 4636 for mental health support and guidance, or the Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467 for free counselling.

Connect with Carly using the links below:

Website - https://www.carly.ink/

Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/carlicita

LinkedIn - https://www.linkedin.com/in/carlicita/

Goodreads - https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/236558341-i-ll-try-anything-twice

Amazon - https://www.amazon.com/Ill-Anything-Twice-Misadventures-Self-Medicated/dp/B0FD8RPH9L/

Bookshop - https://bookshop.org/p/books/i-ll-try-anything-twice-misadventures-of-a-self-medicated-life-carly-schwartz/591dca26d9b8c510

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⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

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Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

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Ep 166. How Mindfulness Builds Resilience, with Melo Calarco

Sun, 15 Mar 2026 18:00:00 GMT

In this inspiring episode, Ash sits down with TEDx speaker and award-winning author Melo Calarco—a man who has quite literally cycled to the edges of the world in search of meaning, resilience, and himself. Over 30,000 kilometres across five continents, Melo has learned that the most transformative journey is always the one within.

He shares how meditation and mindfulness became the quiet anchors behind his extraordinary adventures, and how facing grief, uncertainty, and physical limits on the road ultimately deepened his understanding of what it means to truly live. Together, Ash and Melo explore the tension between ambition and contentment, and what it looks like to pursue big goals without losing yourself in the chase.

Drawing on Eastern philosophies and real-life transformations he has witnessed through his coaching work, Melo offers grounded, practical tools for bringing more presence, flexibility, and fun into everyday life. The conversation is a reminder that growth doesn't always look like pushing harder—sometimes it looks like slowing down, checking in with your values, and choosing joy as a practice. Melo's story is equal parts adventure and wisdom, and a powerful invitation to live more fully, freely, and in alignment with what matters most.

Episode chapters:

00:00 Introduction to Melo Carlaco

01:41 A Day in the Life of Melo

05:54 The Importance of Fun and Play

06:55 Hiding Behind a Smile: Personal Stories

10:02 Navigating Grief and Adversity

13:04 The Journey of a Lifetime: Cycling Around the Globe

17:47 The Seeds of Meditation

20:25 Cultivating the Pause: Reaction vs. Response

24:31 Life After Adventure: What Now?

27:37 The Aftermath of Achievements: TEDx Experience

29:26 Setting Hard Goals for Personal Growth

32:06 The Balance of Flexibility and Discipline

34:08 Integrating Eastern Philosophies into Coaching

39:48 Real-Life Transformations through Mindfulness

44:01 The Importance of Presence in Daily Life

46:40 Practical Tools for Mindfulness and Presence

50:45 Living by Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

Connect with Melo below:

BOOK: BEATING BURNOUT FINDING BALANCE FREE CHAPTER

MELO's TEDx TALK

FREE MEDITATIONS on INSIGHT TIMER

STAY CONNECTED on MELO's LINKED IN

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Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

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Ep 165. Grief, Sobriety and Transformation: Rebuilding a Life After Loss, with Edwina

Sun, 08 Mar 2026 18:00:00 GMT

This week you’re invited to listen in as Ash sits down with her lifelong friend Edwina, to explore what it means to remake your life in the wake of loss, motherhood, and big internal change. Edwina opens up about the sudden death of her brother, how grief reshaped her sense of self, and the quiet, courageous decision to question her relationship with alcohol.

She shares what happened when she chose an alcohol-free life, not just on the surface, but in her identity, her friendships, and the way she shows up as a mother and a woman. Ash and Edwina dive into the role of therapy on this path, unpacking powerful modalities like EMDR, and how these practices helped her meet the younger parts of herself with compassion instead of criticism.

Together, they talk about the fears that come with sobriety and the unexpected gifts that arrive when the noise of drinking is stripped away. The conversation shines a light on how retreats, community, and intentional healing practices can open space for self-discovery, deeper connection, and true emotional safety.

Episode Chapters:

00:00 Introduction to Retreats and Self-Discovery

01:35 Meet Edwina: A Journey Through Life

03:34 Navigating Grief and Vulnerability

06:44 The Impact of Injury on Identity

09:11 Finding Purpose in Adversity

11:01 Hiding Behind a Smile: The Photo Story

21:17 The Unfairness of Life and Loss

23:00 Alcohol: A Coping Mechanism

35:13 Healing and Understanding Family Dynamics

35:48 Therapeutic Journeys: Exploring EMDR and Internal Family Systems

38:02 The Alcohol-Free Awakening: A Personal Journey

42:09 Facing Fears: The Terrifying Decision to Quit Drinking

46:14 Redefining Relationships: Alcohol and Authentic Connections

50:21 Building Deeper Friendships: The Shift in Social Dynamics

55:12 The Power of Vulnerability: Authenticity in Relationships

01:01:05 Embracing Change: The Journey of Self-Discovery

01:07:52 Investing in Self: The Importance of Personal Retreats

01:12:30 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life: Community, Nourishment, and Movement

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Upcoming Workshops:

Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

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Ep 164. Solo Episode: 6 Mistakes I've Made in 6 Years of Sobriety

Sun, 01 Mar 2026 18:00:00 GMT

In another deeply honest solo episode, Ash reflects on the six biggest mistakes she’s made across six years of sobriety and how each one became a turning point for growth, self-trust, and real transformation. She takes you back to the day her life changed, then walks you through the lessons that followed, from expecting others to change, to trying to squeeze her new self into her old life, to giving her power away to people who didn’t have the best intentions.

She opens up about people pleasing, outgrowing relationships, chasing what’s next instead of appreciating what’s now, and the humbling realisation that healing has no finish line. These are the truths she learned the long way, the kind that only come through lived experience, deep reflection, and choosing honesty over comfort.

If you’re navigating change, questioning your path, or learning how to stand in your truth even when it costs you, this episode will feel like a conversation you didn’t know you needed.

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⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com

Upcoming Workshops:

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Reset and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

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Ep 163. The People Who Win Use Pain Differently, with Performance Advisor Mark Dobson

Sun, 22 Feb 2026 18:00:00 GMT

In this powerful and deeply honest conversation, Ash is joined by her mentor and high performance advisor, Mark “Dobbo” Dobson, for a thought-provoking exploration of what it truly takes to grow, evolve, and rise after life challenges you. Together they dive beneath surface level success and unpack the real work behind clarity, purpose, and personal expansion.

Dobbo shares hard-earned wisdom on defining your values, sharpening your vision, and having the courage to live in full alignment with who you really are. They also explore how adversity can become a catalyst for transformation, and why the relationships we choose play a pivotal role in shaping the person we become.

This conversation is a powerful reminder that meaningful growth is not built on perfection, it is built on honesty, resilience, and the willingness to turn life’s hardest moments into the foundation for something greater.

You can connect with Dobbo through his website www.dobbo.com.au.

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Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

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Ep 162. Love Addiction, Codependency, and the Patterns We Inherit, with Rod Butterss

Sun, 15 Feb 2026 18:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash is joined again by her dad, Rod, for a candid conversation about the real complexities of love and relationships. They unpack topics many people experience but rarely talk about openly, including love addiction, love avoidance, codependency, and what healthy communication actually looks like in practice.

Drawing on both personal experience and honest reflection, they explore how family dynamics shape the way we love, the patterns we repeat without realising, and what it takes to change them. Ash also opens up about a deeply personal crossroads, her uncertainty around motherhood, and the inner questions that come with choosing a path that feels true rather than expected.

Their father daughter conversations are always listener favourites, and this is exactly why they continue to shine a light on the honest, nuanced conversations that many people are thinking about, but few feel safe enough to say out loud.

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Ep 161. What It Really Takes to Get Sober in a Drinking Culture, with Vim Verma

Sun, 08 Feb 2026 18:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash has a raw conversation with husband, father, and sober human Vim Verma as they discuss addiction, identity, and what happens when you finally stop running from yourself. Vim opens up about growing up in a mixed-race culture where drinking was normalised, emotions were rarely spoken about, and asking for help felt almost impossible.

Together, they unpack the quiet pressures of family expectations, the heavy emotional charge of the holiday season, and the stigma that keeps so many people suffering in silence. There are moments of grief, moments of clarity, and Vim’s classic humour, that remind us how human this journey really is.

Vim also shares how his recovery program, meditation, and spiritual practice became a turning point, helping him strip back the noise and reconnect with who he is beneath the coping mechanisms. This is a conversation about breaking cycles, choosing courage over comfort, and discovering that real healing starts on the inside.

If you’ve ever questioned your relationship with alcohol, felt trapped by expectations, or wondered what life could look like if you truly listened to yourself, this episode will land.

Episode Chapters:

00:00 Introduction to Retreats and Self-Discovery

01:34 Vim Verma's Journey to Sobriety

03:45 Navigating Sobriety During the Holidays

04:54 Cultural Influences on Drinking

07:24 The Impact of Family Dynamics

07:53 Getting to Know Vim: Daily Life and Fun

14:06 Hiding Behind a Smile: The Photo Story

16:20 The Progression of Alcoholism

19:05 Consequences of Drinking: Crashing and Bashing

28:18 The Turning Point: Seeking Help

31:44 Experiences in Early Recovery

38:47 Finding Hope in Recovery

41:54 Life After Sobriety: Changes and Growth

47:50 Navigating Life's Challenges in Recovery

51:23 The Role of Support in Recovery

59:46 Non-Negotiables for a Happy Life

You can connect with Vim through his Instagram here.

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Upcoming Workshops:

A Return To You | One Day Retreat

Sunday 22nd February, 2026

Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 160. Finding Freedom in Recovery, with Ash Murray

Sun, 01 Feb 2026 18:00:00 GMT

In this special episode, Ash is joined by her longtime friend Ash Murray. For years, both women battled addiction silently, only sharing the full depths of their stories with one another after coming into recovery. Today, Ash Murray is the Eating Disorder Lead and Therapist at The Wave Clinic in Malaysia, with her expertise grounded not just in study, but in lived experience.

Ash opens up about her personal journey through eating disorders and alcohol addiction, sharing what recovery has truly looked like beyond the surface. From the isolating depths of illness which nearly took her life, to the slow rebuilding of trust, self-worth, and connection, she reflects on the pivotal role that rehab, honesty, healing and self-care have played in finding lasting freedom.

Together, they explore the intersection of therapy and lived experience, how vulnerability and empathy can become powerful tools for healing both self and others. They unpack the mental health challenges that intensified during the COVID-19 pandemic, and the importance of ongoing support in maintaining balance and wellbeing.

Episode chapter:

00:00 Introduction to Ashley Murray's Journey

02:57 Life in Malaysia and Work at the Wave Clinic

05:46 Navigating COVID-19 in Treatment

08:21 The Impact of COVID-19 on Mental Health

11:08 A Photo that Represents Struggles

13:55 The Super Yacht Experience and Its Consequences

16:27 The Turning Point: Seeking Help

19:22 Life in Bali and the Struggle with Addiction

22:16 The Rock Bottom Moment

24:49 Desperation and the Path to Recovery

27:08 The Turning Point: Reaching Out for Help

31:53 Childhood Struggles: The Roots of Eating Disorders

44:03 Escaping Reality: The Need to Hide

48:25 Facing the Truth: A Journey of Self-Discovery

54:28 The Struggle of Surrendering Control

57:02 The Complexity of Eating Disorders

59:13 The Power of Intervention

01:00:41 Transformation Through Therapy

01:04:11 Building Trust in Recovery

01:06:15 The Importance of Honesty

01:08:57 Setting Boundaries for Recovery

01:13:03 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

Connect with Ash through:

https://thewaveclinic.com/

https://www.instagram.com/thewaveclinic/

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Upcoming Workshops:

A Return To You | One Day Retreat

Sunday 22nd February, 2026

Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 159. From Self Destruction to Self Discovery: How Almost Losing Everything Saved Him, with James Date

Sun, 25 Jan 2026 18:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash sits down with husband, father, and business owner James Date to explore what life looks like after addiction—and how recovery has reshaped the way he moves through the world.

James shares how community, service, and genuine connection became the anchors of his sobriety, transforming what once felt like isolation into a life rich with meaning and purpose. He speaks openly about the power of vulnerability, the role of daily routines and prayer in keeping him grounded, and how embracing honesty has deepened his relationships at home and beyond.

Together, Ash and James confront the lingering stigma around addiction and discuss the strength it takes to ask for help. Through moments of reflection and gratitude, James reveals the quiet joy found in showing up authentically each day—a reminder that recovery isn’t just about living without substances, but about rediscovering who you are underneath it all.

Episode Chapters:

00:00 Introduction to James Date and His Journey

02:54 The Importance of Connection and Community in Recovery

05:52 Daily Routines and Spiritual Practices

08:58 The Role of Surrender in Recovery

11:58 Compassion and Kindness in Daily Life

15:01 Finding Joy in Service and Helping Others

17:57 The Impact of Sponsorship in Recovery

21:03 The Struggles of Identifying as an Addict

24:03 Behind the Smile: A Photo Reflection

26:53 The Journey to Acknowledging Addiction

30:08 Understanding the Roots of Addiction

32:54 The Ongoing Journey of Recovery

36:18 Understanding Alcoholism and Addiction

38:30 Rock Bottom Moments

42:14 Finding the Right Rehab

49:34 The Journey of Outpatient Recovery

51:23 The Importance of Vulnerability

56:54 Reconnecting with Self and Family

01:02:25 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

Connect with James below:

Instagram: @slayingsober

Podcast: Slaying Sober - listen on Spotify

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Upcoming Workshops:

A Return To You | One Day Retreat

Sunday 22nd February, 2026

Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 158. Solo Episode: How to stop the hustle while still creating your dream life

Sun, 18 Jan 2026 18:00:00 GMT

In this solo episode, Ash challenges the myth that hustle creates happiness and asks a better question: what if the dream life is built through alignment and embodiment instead of force?

Through her own transformation from corporate burnout and addiction to sobriety, surrender and spacious success, she explores why achievement without fulfilment leaves us empty and how co-creating with life can deliver breakthroughs hustle never could.

She unpacks the Law of Least Effort, the power of nervous system safety, and the practical habits she’s using to set up 2026, including her word of the year and a new manifesto that prioritises alignment, presence, ease and self trust. If you’re tired of pushing, proving or performing, this episode shows you how to create more by doing less and build a life that feels good on the inside.

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com

Upcoming Workshops:

A Return To You | One Day Retreat

Sunday 22nd February, 2026

Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 157. Unpacking the Meaning of Life and Developing Emotional Responsibility, with Rick Watson

Sun, 11 Jan 2026 18:00:00 GMT

After years of living with a debilitating condition, Rick Watson has learned what it truly means to face fear and find freedom on the other side. In this episode, the holistic coach and gestalt therapist in training opens up about the profound transformation that followed his diagnosis, the trauma of constant uncertainty, and the life-altering decision to undergo brain surgery.

Rick shares how recovery from both the physical and emotional toll of his condition sparked a deeper journey toward authenticity and self-understanding. As he describes his transition into therapy, he unpacks the core principles of gestalt work: presence, honesty, and the courage to be seen as you are. The conversation explores how health challenges can reshape identity, relationships, and purpose and how taking full responsibility for our emotions becomes the key to freedom.

Together, Ash and Rick reflect on themes of vulnerability, generational patterns, and the importance of truly listening to ourselves and others. They discuss burnout in helping professions, the meaning found in midlife transitions, and the art of mapping one’s inner world to reveal clarity and connection.

Episode Chapters:

00:00 Introduction to Rick Watson and His Journey

02:58 Living with Epilepsy: The Hidden Struggles

05:55 The Impact of Brain Surgery and Recovery

08:57 Life After Epilepsy: Embracing Freedom

11:54 Transitioning to Therapy: A New Path

15:02 Gestalt Therapy: Understanding the Modality

18:05 The Importance of Being Present

20:48 Personal Growth Through Therapy Retreats

23:58 Authenticity: The Journey to Being Yourself

32:01 The Power of Vulnerability in Men's Circles

35:56 Unpacking Core Wounds and Generational Patterns

39:48 Navigating Burnout and Protecting Energy

44:04 The Importance of Listening and Emotional Responsibility

49:00 Finding Meaning in Midlife Transitions

55:53 Mapping the Inner Self for Clarity

01:00:59 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Rick through:

Instagram https://www.instagram.com/rickwatson_/

Website: https://www.rickwatson.com.au/

Podcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/3r8QaWJYgB73pOF9b0Hi0t?si=76e4b44b93864ba0

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Ep. 156 How to Make 2026 Your Best Year Yet, with Holistic Psychologist Laura Corcoran

Wed, 31 Dec 2025 22:47:28 GMT

To kick off the new year, Ash sits down with holistic psychologist Laura Corcoran for a soulful and grounded conversation about how to truly create a powerful year ahead.

Together, they explore the practice of letting go, not as something you think your way through, but as something you feel, embody, and live. They speak candidly about surrender, emotional release, and the subtle moments where growth asks you to slow down, soften, and trust yourself more deeply. Woven throughout is the importance of authenticity and the role of community in supporting real, lasting change.

As they reflect on the year that’s been and turn their attention toward what’s possible next, Ash and Laura invite you to reconsider what it means to thrive. Less hustle, more presence. Less force, more space. A year shaped by rest, reflection, and joy, rather than pressure or perfection.

The episode closes with an exciting announcement about The Embodied Woman, their upcoming retreat created for women who are ready to reconnect with their bodies, reclaim their worth, and step into the next chapter feeling grounded, supported, and deeply embodied.

Episode Chapters:

00:00 New Beginnings: Embracing 2026

01:38 Letting Go: The Journey of Self-Discovery

04:29 The Power of Surrender: Trusting the Process

09:54 Finding Strength Within: The Role of Emotional Release

14:30 The Simplicity of Self-Connection: Embracing Stillness

18:57 Redefining Success: From External Validation to Inner Peace

23:22 The Importance of Community: Navigating Transformation Together

26:26 Embracing Self-Worth and Authenticity

27:20 Breaking Free from Co-dependency

29:56 The Power of Presence and Self-Expression

31:21 Navigating Loneliness and Connection

35:30 The Journey of Self-Discovery and Embodiment

37:27 Setting Intentions for 2026

43:11 The Embodied Woman Retreat

49:39 Taking Action Towards Change

You can connect with Laura on her IG @hersuccessfulmind

Upcoming Workshops:

A Return To You | One Day Retreat

Sunday 22nd February, 2026

Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 155. The Raw Reality of Recovery, Relapse and Rebuilding with Gabby Williamson (Part Two)

Sun, 28 Dec 2025 18:00:00 GMT

In part two of this conversation, Gabby opens up about what happened after her first attempt at recovery, when alcohol crept back in and the old patterns she thought she’d left behind began to resurface in new, painful ways.

She speaks honestly about the experience of being a “dry drunk,” white-knuckling her way through sobriety without true emotional healing, and how that disconnection eventually led her back to party drugs and an inevitable rock bottom. Through raw reflection, Gabby unpacks the misconceptions she once held about addiction and sobriety, the fear that kept her stuck, and the moment she finally became willing to seek deeper help.

She explores the ongoing nature of recovery: the reality of relapse, the weight of unaddressed trauma, and the mental health struggles that don’t magically disappear when the substances do. Ash and Gabby talk about the power of community, the safety of honest relationships, and the courage it takes to let others in when shame is loud. At the heart of this episode is a message of hope, about the transformative role of gratitude, self-awareness, and self-care in building a life that is not just sober, but genuinely connected and worth staying for.

Episode Chapters:

00:00 Introduction and Trigger Warning

01:00 First Round of Recovery: A Journey Begins

05:51 The Struggle with Alcohol and Denial

09:59 The Dry Drunk Experience

14:01 Revisiting Old Habits: The Return of Party Drugs

19:53 Rock Bottom: A Descent into Darkness

28:16 Facing Fear and Seeking Help

31:42 The Journey to Rehab

32:39 Discovering Community in Recovery

35:40 Relapse and Realizations

38:17 Understanding Rock Bottom

41:54 Navigating Mental Health in Recovery

45:49 Exploring CPTSD and Healing

51:53 Finding Balance in Recovery

57:24 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

Connect with Gabby:

IG: @bellylaughsbrutalhonesty and @gabriellesiobhan

Podcast: Belly Laughs and Brutal Honesty

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Upcoming Workshops:

A Return To You | One Day Retreat

Sunday 22nd February, 2026

Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

Support Services

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Ep 154. The Raw Reality of Recovery, Relapse and Rebuilding with Gabby Williamson (Part One)

Sun, 21 Dec 2025 18:00:00 GMT

In this two-part episode, I sit down with my close friend Gabby Williamson to lift the lid on the reality of living life in recovery. In part one of this conversation we talk about how, in her mid thirties, Gabby had everything that was supposed to add up to a good life - an impressive marketing career, a busy social calendar, and a carefully curated image. Behind the scenes, though, she was unraveling, using substances to cope with unresolved pain, mounting pressure, and a growing sense of disconnection from herself.

Gabby shares the story of what happened when her life finally collided with the truth. She talks about hitting rock bottom and entering rehab at 39, and how that experience became the doorway to resilience, gratitude, and a completely new way of living. Her journey stretches back to childhood challenges, early substance use, and the impact of boarding school on her sense of identity, tracing how those early wounds shaped the choices she made in adulthood.

Ash and Gabby explore the realities of navigating concerts, parties, and dating in recovery, and what it means to show up to those spaces without the old crutches. Gabby reflects on past relationships, the societal expectations that kept her performing a role, and the ongoing work of embracing her authentic self. She also speaks about motherhood, the weight of her decisions, and the profound growth that comes with redefining love, intimacy, and connection through a sober lens.

Episode Chapters:

00:00 Introduction and Background

02:55 Life in Recovery and Daily Routines

05:53 Navigating Social Situations in Sobriety

08:58 Experiences at Concerts and Events

11:58 Reflections on Past Relationships and Self-Perception

15:06 The Impact of Substance Abuse on Life

18:12 The Role of Gratitude in Recovery

20:51 Hiding Behind a Smile: Personal Struggles

23:48 Childhood and Early Exposure to Substance Use

37:31 Childhood Trauma and Early Coping Mechanisms

40:31 The Impact of Boarding School on Identity

46:32 Escalation of Substance Use in Adolescence

51:29 Navigating Relationships and Emotional Connections

01:00:06 Reflections on Motherhood and Personal Choices

01:06:32 Dating in Recovery and Redefining Relationships

Connect with Gabby:

IG: @bellylaughsbrutalhonesty and @gabriellesiobhan

Podcast: Belly Laughs and Brutal Honesty

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Upcoming Workshops:

A Return To You | One Day Retreat

Sunday 22nd February, 2026

Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

Support Services

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Ep 153. How Your Energy Shapes Your Life and Protecting Your Peace, with Rod Butterss

Sun, 14 Dec 2025 18:00:00 GMT

Back by popular demand, this father daughter episode brings the conversation close to home, as Ash sits down with her dad, Rod, to explore what it truly means to grow, heal, and live with intention. Together, they reflect on how energy, consciousness, and the way we choose to see the world can shape the course of a life far more than circumstance ever could.

Together, Ash and Rod dive into the practices that have supported their own journeys, including gratitude and meditation, and how these tools have helped them navigate relationships, soften old patterns, and find a deeper sense of peace beneath ambition and material success. They speak honestly about the complexities of family dynamics, the tension between chasing more and being enough, and the ongoing work of aligning how you live with what really matters.

With the holiday season looming, their conversation turns to the emotional weight that Christmas can carry, especially for those in recovery or struggling behind the scenes. They share gentle, practical insights on protecting your energy, setting boundaries, and meeting yourself with compassion during a time that can feel anything but festive. At its heart, this episode is an invitation to slow down, look within, and choose kindness, to yourself and others, as a daily, deliberate practice.

Episode Chapters:

00:00 Introduction to the Holistic Retreat

00:45 Exploring Personal Growth and Energy

03:19 The Power of Ho'oponopono and Forgiveness

06:17 Understanding Consciousness and Energy Frequencies

08:53 Navigating Relationships and Personal Growth

11:39 The Role of Gratitude in Healing

14:29 Reflections on Materialism and Happiness

18:03 Ambition vs. Inner Peace

21:53 The Importance of Self-Awareness

24:45 Christmas and Family Dynamics

27:25 Coping with Holiday Stress and Expectations

30:03 Navigating Sober Holidays

34:06 Finding Peace in Family Gatherings

36:42 The Shift from Materialism to Experiences

39:42 The Importance of Kindness and Connection

42:28 Final Thoughts and Non-Negotiables for Happiness

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Upcoming Workshops:

A Return To You | One Day Retreat

Sunday 22nd February, 2026

Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 152. Surviving the Silly Season Sober (and enjoying it!) with Abby Calabrese

Sun, 07 Dec 2025 18:00:00 GMT

In the heart of New York City, Abby Calabrese was living the dream on paper but the reality was she was quietly unravelling behind the scenes. Long days, late nights, and a culture steeped in drinking turned alcohol into her go-to coping mechanism, even as the cost to her wellbeing grew harder to ignore.

In this episode, Abby shares how walking away from alcohol became the catalyst for a complete identity shift and the creation of Alcohol Free Rebellion, a movement dedicated to helping others question the role alcohol plays in their lives. Ash and Abby dive into the awkwardness of social events without a drink in hand, the emotional honesty that sobriety demands, and how choosing not to numb out can radically transform relationships and self-worth.

Abby offers practical guidance for facing triggers, especially during the holidays, while staying anchored in intention, community, and self-compassion. She speaks to the power of mindfulness in strengthening intuition and making choices that truly align with who you are. At the heart of her story are the non-negotiables she now lives by: authenticity, emotional awareness, and unwavering self-care as the foundation of a full, meaningful, alcohol-free life.

Episode Chapters:

00:00 Introduction to Abby Calabrese and Her Journey

02:53 Navigating Life After Alcohol

05:45 The Challenge of Socializing Sober

08:29 Understanding Emotions and Feelings

11:34 Shifting Perspectives on Life

14:20 The Impact of Alcohol on Relationships

17:25 Hiding Behind a Smile: Abby's Photo Story

20:02 Recognizing Rock Bottoms and Justifications

22:48 The Roots of Abby's Drinking History

24:19 The Role of Alcohol in Socialization

29:29 Recognizing the Problem

32:21 The Turning Point

37:24 The Challenge of Sobriety

38:44 Shame and Stigma in Motherhood

43:59 Transforming Relationships in Sobriety

45:46 Embracing Authenticity in Relationships

47:22 Navigating Sobriety During the Holidays

49:16 Practical Tips for Alcohol-Free Celebrations

53:40 Listening to Your Intuition

56:50 Cultivating Mindfulness and Self-Awareness

01:02:36 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Upcoming Workshops:

The Letting Go Ritual: Breathwork, Yin, and Intention Setting for 2026

A Return To You | One Day Retreat

Sunday 22nd February, 2026

Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 151. From the Streets of London to a Quiet Sober Life, with Damo H

Sun, 30 Nov 2025 18:00:00 GMT

Growing up on the streets of London, Damo H learned at an early age how to outrun pain, but it always caught up. In this candid and moving episode, Damo traces his journey through childhood trauma, the shadow of addiction, and the relentless pursuit of healing.

He recounts how alcohol first became his refuge, how physical injury and prescription medication complicated his path, and how new beginnings in Australia brought a new set of challenges. The rock bottoms came again and again, each one forcing him to confront the reality of his disease.

Through service, community, and the support of a 12-step program, Damo found answers that went deeper than sobriety. He shares how recovery reshaped his family, revived his passion for photography, and gave him a sense of purpose. With honesty and hope, Damo reveals what it means to rebuild life from the ground up, and how after years of struggle, he’s learning to embrace happiness, gratitude, and authentic connection.

Episode Chapters:

00:00 Introduction and Letting Go Ritual

00:51 Meet Damo H: A Journey Begins

02:57 Daily Life and Recovery Practices

05:59 The Role of Service in Recovery

08:47 Childhood and Family Dynamics

12:01 The First Drink: A Turning Point

14:55 Growing Up in London: The Streets and Gangs

18:11 The Impact of Alcoholism on Relationships

20:50 Moving to Australia: New Beginnings

24:09 Career and Alcoholism: A Fragile Balance

27:08 Rehab and the Road to Sobriety

30:00 Family Tragedies and Resilience

32:04 Reflections on Sobriety and Happiness

36:24 The Slippery Slope of Addiction

39:54 The Return to Alcohol

46:11 Rock Bottoms and Revelations

50:40 A New Approach to Sobriety

01:01:30 Building a New Life in Sobriety

01:07:20 Non-Negotiables for a Happy Life

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Upcoming Workshops:

The Letting Go Ritual: Breathwork, Yin, and Intention Setting for 2026

A Return To You | One Day Retreat

Sunday 22nd February, 2026

Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 150. The Real Reason You Don’t Feel Enough: How Facing Your Inner Critic Is the Key to Self Acceptance, with Ash Butterss

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 18:00:00 GMT

In this milestone 150th episode of Behind The Smile, Ash dives into a deeply personal conversation about healing, self perception, and the ever evolving journey of coming home to yourself. She unpacks the relationship between the inner critic, body image, and the way we move through the world, both physically and emotionally.

Through honest reflection and lived experience, Ash explores the quiet conditions we place on our own worth and the tender work of learning to accept ourselves as we are, not as we think we should be. This episode is an invitation to look beneath the surface, to recognise how far you have already come, and to remember that growth is not a finish line, it is a lifelong practice.

If you have ever battled your inner critic, questioned your worth, or felt the pull to redefine your relationship with yourself, this one will meet you right where you are.

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⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com

The Letting Go Ritual: Breathwork, Yin, and Intention Setting for 2026

Tuesday 30th December, 2025

A Return To You | One Day Retreat

Sunday 22nd February, 2026

Click here for all the details!

The Embodied Woman Retreat - Gold Coast Hinterland

May 14th - 17th, 2026 (3 nights, 4 days)

All the details here.

Join Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! Rest & Renew Holistic Bali Retreat

August 17th - 21st, 2026 (4 nights, 5 days)

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 149. The Shame That Nearly Broke Her Became Her Purpose, with Sober Coach Shannon Leigh Mccabe

Sun, 16 Nov 2025 18:00:00 GMT

For Shannon McCabe, hitting rock bottom became the beginning of everything. Once living a life that looked “fine” on the outside yet was quietly ruled by addiction, Shannon, a sober coach and transformation mentor, opens up about the raw truth of her journey through alcohol dependency and the deep healing that followed.

In this powerful conversation, Ash and Shannon explore the emotional unraveling that precedes real change, the spiritual awakening that came through surrender, and the daily rituals that now anchor her sobriety. Shannon speaks honestly about motherhood and the challenges that come with caring for a child with special needs. The shame she battled on a daily basis through her addiction. Rediscovering self-worth, and showing how setting boundaries and embracing community became her path to peace.

This episode is a reminder that recovery isn’t about who you were, it’s about who you’re becoming.

Episode chapters:

00:00 Introduction to Shannon's Journey

02:05 A Day in the Life of a Sober Mom

04:48 The Importance of Morning Routines

06:50 Devotional Practices and Spirituality

13:46 Behind the Smile: A Photo Reflection

21:40 The Progression of Alcohol Use

31:41 Moments of Clarity and Rock Bottoms

37:43 The All-or-Nothing Mindset

44:45 Non-Negotiables for a Sober Life

53:19 Navigating Relapses and Setbacks

58:42 Living Authentically and Free

You can connect with Shannon using the links below:

Website: www.shannonleighmccabe.com

IG @shannonleighmccabe

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

The Letting Go Ritual: Breathwork, Yin, and Intention Setting for 2026

Join Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026.

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 148. Beyond Codependency: The Truth About Self-Worth and Healing with Psychotherapist Jackson Goding

Sun, 09 Nov 2025 18:00:00 GMT

What happens when self-worth becomes the missing piece in healing? In this episode, Ash sits down with Trauma Specialist and Psychotherapist, Jackson Goding, for a raw and thought-provoking conversation about what it really takes to recover, grow, and build authentic connection.

Jackson opens up about his own journey through codependency, the reality of doing deep trauma work, and why self-worth sits at the heart of true healing. Together, they explore the often messy path of relationships, meditation, and emotional regulation, unravelling why personal growth is rarely linear and almost never easy.

This episode goes far beyond the surface of “self-care.” It’s about courage, consistency, and the daily non-negotiables that help us return to ourselves again and again. Expect honesty, humour, and plenty of takeaways to help you nurture your own sense of worth and connection.

Episode chapters:

00:00 Introduction to Jackson Goding and His Work

02:45 Living in Sydney and Future Plans

05:33 Daily Life and Mindfulness Practices

08:31 The Challenge of Powerlessness and Surrender

11:14 Meditation: The Struggle and Its Importance

14:04 Hiding Behind a Smile: Personal Struggles

17:00 Relationships as Mirrors for Personal Growth

19:40 The Complexity of Relationships and Recovery

22:21 The Journey to Becoming a Therapist

24:59 Core Beliefs and Their Impact on Identity

31:02 Navigating Shame and Self-Worth

31:46 Understanding Triggers and Responses

33:07 Effective Communication in Relationships

35:06 The Impact of Past Experiences

36:53 Identifying and Expressing Needs

39:59 The Importance of Boundaries

41:36 Self-Accountability and Inner Child Work

44:24 Defining Codependency

48:10 The Challenges of Recovery from Codependency

52:57 Staying Accountable in Relationships

56:12 Establishing Non-Negotiables for Self-Care

01:02:26 Finding Balance in Relationships

You can connect with Jackson via the below channels:

It Ends With Us Retreat: https://findreasontherapy.com.au/it-ends-with-us/

IG @findreasontherapy https://www.instagram.com/findreasontherapy/

Before you do more work: https://app.heartbeat.chat/findreason/courses/c/e7acf2c4-df05-4546-8b6c-092d8363fa2a

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

The Letting Go Ritual: Breathwork, Yin, and Intention Setting for 2026

Join Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 147. Paralyzed at 21: Rhiannon Tracey on Hope and Defying the Impossible

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 18:00:00 GMT

One moment changed everything for Rhiannon Tracey, but it didn’t define her spirit. In this heartfelt conversation, the motivational speaker, TEDx presenter, and wellness advocate opens up about the accident that left her with a spinal cord injury and the extraordinary journey that followed.

Rhiannon shares how she transformed tragedy into purpose, from the early days of relearning life’s simplest tasks to founding a not-for-profit dedicated to helping others do the same. Along the way, she discovered the healing power of community, self-love, and joy in the smallest moments.

With honesty and warmth, she reflects on the boundaries she’s learned to set, the intuition she’s learned to trust, and the unconditional love of her pets that carried her through. Her story is a moving reminder that freedom doesn’t come from circumstance, it comes from choosing to live with hope, gratitude, and authenticity.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Resilience and Transformation

01:55 Daily Life and Joys of Rhiannon

05:11 Hiding Behind a Smile: A Photo Reflection

22:53 The Day That Changed Everything: Rhiannon's Accident

26:43 Resilience Through Adversity

29:52 Finding Hope in Trauma

37:30 The Role of Hope in Recovery

47:33 Creating a Community for Healing

50:12 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Rhiannon using the links below:

Website: www.rhiannontracey.com.au
The Next Step Recovery & Wellness Centre: www.thenextstepsci.org.au
Instagram: @rhiannontraceymywheellife | @our_little_urban_homestead | @thenextstepscirecovery
Email: rhiannontraceymywheellife@gmail.com

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⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Join Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026.

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 146. Haunted by the Badge: Jay Prothero’s Battle with PTSD and Redemption

Sun, 26 Oct 2025 18:00:00 GMT

After decades on the front line, retired police officer Jay Prothero found himself fighting a different kind of battle—the one inside his own mind. In this raw and powerful conversation, Jay opens up about the toll that years of trauma, high pressure, and suppressed emotion took on his mental health.

He shares how anxiety, depression, and PTSD slowly crept in, and how alcohol became his escape from the pain he didn’t know how to face. But Jay’s story goes far deeper than his time in uniform. It’s also about the heartbreak of watching his own child spiral into ice addiction, and the painful, messy road toward family healing.

Together, Ash and Jay unpack what it truly means to break the silence, to face yourself with honesty, and to rebuild a life grounded in authenticity, courage, and hope.

Episode chapters:

00:00 Introduction to Jay Prothero's Journey

04:14 The Power of Ice Baths and Breathwork

08:49 Hiding Behind a Smile: Jay's Struggles with Mental Health

17:35 The Impact of a Police Career on Mental Health

26:22 The Journey to Recovery: Jay's Path to Healing

35:13 Parenting Through Addiction: Jay's Experience with His Son

43:30 Living Authentically: Jay's Non-Negotiables for Happiness

You can connect with Jay through:

Instagram @freezeyourself_au @breathe_with_jay

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Join Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026.

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 145. Psychologist Dr. Julia Nicholls Opens Up About Her Personal Battle with Psychosis and Post-Natal Depression

Sun, 19 Oct 2025 18:00:00 GMT

Psychosis is one of the most misunderstood experiences in mental health, often clouded by fear, stigma, and silence. In this powerful episode, Ash sits down with clinical psychologist Dr. Julia Nicholls, who courageously shares her personal journey through postnatal depression and psychosis.

What makes Julia’s story so extraordinary is not just her vulnerability, but the fact that she’s a mental health professional who found herself on the other side of the system she once worked within. Together, Ash and Julia unpack the misconceptions surrounding psychosis, the shame that still shadows mental health struggles, and the raw reality of asking for help when you’re expected to have the answers.

Julia also opens up about the healing process of writing a memoir with her husband, revealing how storytelling and connection became powerful tools for recovery. This conversation is a reminder that even those who guide others through their darkest moments are not immune to them—and that speaking openly about our pain can be the very thing that sets us free.

Key Highlights:

The importance of taking time for self-care and rest.
Reflective practice is crucial for psychologists to maintain objectivity.
Hiding behind a smile is common among those struggling with mental health.
Early motherhood can be particularly challenging for mental health.
The inner critic can exacerbate feelings of inadequacy in new parents.
Mental health practitioners also need support and can face stigma.
Postnatal psychosis is often misunderstood and can manifest in various ways.
Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) is a safe and effective treatment for severe depression.
Open communication is essential for healing in relationships affected by mental health issues.
Seeking help is vital, and there are many resources available.

Episode chapters:

[00:00] Introduction and Retreat Announcement

[03:15] Meet Dr. Julia Nicholls

[10:45] Understanding Postnatal Depression

[20:30] The Stigma of Mental Health in Professionals

[30:00] Exploring Psychosis and Misconceptions

[40:15] The Role of ECT in Recovery

[50:00] Healing and Open Communication

[60:00] Closing Thoughts and Resources

You can connect with Dr. Julia Nicholls using the links below:

LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/julia-nicholls-105679a3

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/drjulianicholls/

Website: https://drjulianicholls.com/

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Join Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026.

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 144. How 14 Minutes Can Change Your Life, with Mental Health Advocate, Cooper Chapman

Sun, 12 Oct 2025 18:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash sits down with former pro surfer turned mental health trailblazer, Cooper Chapman, for a raw and inspiring conversation about purpose, mindset, and creating real change from the inside out.

After years chasing trophies and external success, Cooper realised the waves he truly needed to ride were the ones within. What followed was a powerful shift, one that led him to build The Good Human Factory and dedicate his life to helping others nurture their mental wellbeing.

Cooper opens up about what he’s learned along the way, from the quiet power of small daily habits to the freedom that comes when we stop seeking validation outside ourselves. He shares the story behind the 1% Good Club, a global movement encouraging people to spend just 14 minutes a day on gratitude, mindfulness, and self-reflection, because big change always starts small.

Together, Ash and Cooper explore the importance of community, balance, and practical self-care routines that actually stick. Cooper’s message is simple yet profound: mental health isn’t a destination, it’s a daily practice of showing up with compassion, curiosity, and consistency.

Key highlights include:

Cooper's journey from pro surfer to mental health advocate.
The importance of small, consistent actions for mental health.
The 1% Good Club encourages daily mental health practices.
External validation can impact mental wellbeing.
Community support enhances accountability in mental health.
Mindfulness and gratitude are key practices for mental health.
Mental health is a continuous journey, not a destination.
Finding balance in life is essential for wellbeing.
Nature and connection to the earth are vital for mental health.
It's okay to take a break and prioritise self-care.

Episode chapters:

00:00 Introduction to the Retreat and Guest

00:45 Cooper Chapman's Journey and Book Launch

01:54 The Impact of External Validation

06:40 Navigating Long-Distance Relationships

11:27 Finding Balance in Life and Work

13:32 Hiding Behind a Smile: Cooper's Struggles

19:32 Shifting Mindsets and Mental Health Advocacy

26:27 The Birth of the Good Human Factory

33:55 The 1% Good Club: A Community for Mental Health

38:52 Daily Practices for Mental Wellbeing

51:41 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Cooper using the links below:

Instagram - @cooperchapman + @thegoodhumanfactory

Website - thegoodhumanfactory.com

1% Good Club Book - Buy Here!

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com

Join Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026.

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

If you need support with your mental health, please contact Lifeline on 13 11 14. Or if you'd prefer to text lifeline, you can reach a support team member on 0477 13 11 14.

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Ep 143. Healing as a Mother: Rebuilding Trust After Addiction and Starting Over with Jo Kinna

Sun, 05 Oct 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this heartfelt episode, Ash is joined by breathwork facilitator and sober mum, Jo Kinna, for a powerful conversation about rebuilding life after addiction. Jo opens up about the deeply personal journey of repairing her relationship with her children, navigating the pain of divorce, and discovering her true purpose in the middle of life’s most challenging season.

Through honesty and vulnerability, she shares how breathwork, meditation, and community became essential tools in her healing and how they continue to support her sobriety today. Jo’s story is one of resilience, showing that even after years of struggle, it’s possible to create meaningful connection, inner peace, and a life aligned with your true self.

This episode shines a light on the courage it takes to start over, the strength found in repairing broken bonds, and the hope that comes when you embrace mid-life as a new beginning.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to the Retreat and Podcast Themes

01:52 Jo's Journey: From Addiction to Recovery

06:27 Daily Practices: Meditation and Breathwork

11:03 Navigating Social Anxiety and Relationships

14:40 The Impact of Trauma on Addiction

18:29 The Cycle of Addiction: A Personal Story

23:00 Hitting Rock Bottom and Seeking Help

27:57 The Role of Community in Recovery

32:42 Life After Rehab: Challenges and Growth

37:25 Finding Purpose: Breathwork and Teaching

42:03 Future Aspirations and Continued Growth

46:32 Closing Thoughts and Non-Negotiables

Join Jo at her next event The Gift of Pause on November 12th at Merkabar Studio in Cheltenham - Event Details & Tickets Here!

You can connect with Jo Kinna on Instagram here @beyondthewave__

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Join Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026.
Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 142. Why Outward Success Will Never Be Enough, with Nick Jonsson

Sun, 28 Sep 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this episode, we’re joined by Nick Jonsson, a global keynote speaker and mental health advocate. Nick shares his inspiring journey from reaching the heights of corporate success to his journey of personal recovery, discussing the challenges of hitting rock bottom and getting sober, along with balancing travel, work, and family life. He opens up about his hidden struggles behind his smile, the isolation that comes with success, losing a close friend to suicide and the physical manifestations of stress. Nick emphasises the importance of surrendering to change, building connections, and sharing stories to combat loneliness. He also talks passionately about the role of fitness in his recovery.

This episode offers a profound look at vulnerability, resilience, and the transformative power of connection in the pursuit of mental and emotional well-being.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Nick Jonsson's Journey

02:52 The Importance of Routine in Recovery

05:43 Behind the Smile: The Struggle with Executive Loneliness

08:25 The Downward Spiral: From Success to Isolation

11:31 The Roots of Anxious Overachievement

14:12 The Impact of Drinking Culture on Mental Health

16:57 Hitting Rock Bottom: The Psychosomatic Illness

19:55 The Turning Point: Finding Hope and Connection

23:44 The Power of Surrender

28:33 Building Connections in Recovery

30:24 Honoring Simon: A Catalyst for Change

35:35 Understanding Smiling Depression

39:09 The Journey of Self-Discovery

42:51 Encouraging Vulnerability in Men

46:37 Fitness as a Key to Recovery

49:03 Living Authentically: Non-Negotiables for Life

You can connect with Nick through:

LinkedIn: www.linkedin.com/in/nick-jonsson
YouTube: www.youtube.com/c/NickJonsson
Instagram: www.instagram.com/jonssonnick
Facebook: https://web.facebook.com/jonsson.nick

Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Join Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026.

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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Ep 141. I’ve Been in a Dark Place: A Raw Reflection with Ash Butterss

Sun, 21 Sep 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this raw and unfiltered solo episode, Ash opens up about what really happened after returning from a powerful retreat in Bali. She shares the unexpected crash that followed, the darkness she found herself sitting in, and how she’s been navigating waves of depression with honesty and self-compassion.

Ash talks about the messy reality of healing, the role of the nervous system in moments of struggle, and the surprising strength that comes from leaning on community. She doesn’t sugarcoat the hard parts, but instead shows how vulnerability, connection, and small acts of self-care can carry us through even the heaviest seasons.

If you’ve ever felt like you “should” be further along or questioned why things feel so hard after big breakthroughs, this episode will remind you that you’re not alone, and that the path to healing is never a straight line.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to the Retreat and Podcast

01:38 Vulnerability and Personal Reflection

02:34 Post-Retreat Struggles and Burnout

05:24 Navigating Depression and Emotional Awareness

10:14 Finding Comfort in Nostalgia and Self-Care

14:22 Understanding Nervous System Regulation

17:47 The Importance of Emotional Processing

20:53 Self-Compassion and Authenticity

28:51 Insights from the Retreat Experience

33:20 Looking Ahead: Slowing Down and Self-Care

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Ep 140. From Not Leaving the House to Living Fully: Justine Youl on Recovering from Addiction and Abuse

Sun, 14 Sep 2025 21:47:17 GMT

In this episode, Ash welcomes Justine Youl, who shares her remarkable journey of recovery and transformation after facing an abusive relationship, crippling addiction and debilitating mental health. At the peak of her alcoholism, Justine couldn’t even leave her house. Now, over three and a half years sober, Justine runs a thriving international business from her home in Bali, where she lives with her partner and three children. Justine describes the discipline of her morning routine, the importance of setting clear boundaries, and the life-changing effects of breathwork and meditation on her healing process.

Justine also bravely opens up about navigating grief, her spiritual journey, and how living with ADHD has shaped her perspective and daily life. Through her experiences, she embodies resilience and hope, demonstrating that it is possible to create a meaningful and joyful life after overcoming immense challenges.

This conversation is a powerful reminder of the strength found in self-discovery, the healing power of mindfulness, and the courage it takes to build a fulfilling life one day at a time.

Her story is one of resilience, hope, and the pursuit of a fulfilling life after overcoming significant obstacles.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Justine's Journey

02:54 Life in Bali: A New Beginning

05:41 Facing the Past: Sobriety and Family Dynamics

08:30 The Impact of Domestic Violence

11:30 The Descent into Addiction

14:24 Finding Recovery: The Path to Sobriety

17:10 Building a New Life: Parenting and Recovery

20:10 The Power of Morning Routines

22:54 Navigating Grief and Loss

25:54 Establishing Boundaries with Family

28:57 Spiritual Growth and Transformation

31:47 Breathwork and Meditation: Tools for Healing

34:35 The Role of ADHD in Daily Life

37:29 Cold Therapy and Its Benefits

40:19 The Journey of Faith: Baptism and Belief

43:03 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Justine through:

Instagram: ⁠@jus_youl⁠

LinkedIn: ⁠Justine Youl⁠

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Ep 139. Choosing Life Over Alcohol: Chris Gimpel’s Honest Journey

Sun, 07 Sep 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash is joined by Chris Gimpel, a passionate advocate for sobriety and mental health, who shares his courageous journey of overcoming alcohol dependence. Chris speaks candidly about the realities of living with addiction, the pivotal moment that inspired him to seek help, and the ongoing work required to maintain his recovery.

The conversation explores the essential role of community, the practice of self-compassion, and the process of rewiring the brain to establish healthier patterns and habits. Chris reflects on the non-negotiables that anchor his daily life, including prioritising rest, spending quality time with his dog, and finding purpose in supporting others on their own paths to healing.

This episode is a testament to the power of authenticity and connection, offering hope, practical insight, and inspiration for anyone navigating the challenges of recovery and self-discovery.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Chris Gimple and His Journey

06:18 The Role of Pets in Recovery

09:15 Life Before Sobriety: A Day in the Life

15:57 Understanding Alcohol Dependence

22:49 The Recovery Process: Challenges and Realizations

25:32 The Turning Point: A Moment of Honesty

26:53 Recognizing the Need for Change

28:04 Seeking Help and Support

29:25 The Role of Family and Self-Worth

30:45 Finding Motivation for Recovery

33:25 Relearning Emotions and Thoughts

36:45 Creating Healthy Patterns

37:08 Navigating Challenges in Sobriety

42:04 Embracing the Unknown

46:26 Choosing Your Hard

48:39 Living Authentically and Non-Negotiables

To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠

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Ep 138. Not Letting Trauma Define You, with your Self-Love Bestie, Sarah Viliamu

Sun, 31 Aug 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this deeply inspiring episode, Ash sits down with Sarah Viliamu, founder of The Self Love Supply, to explore her extraordinary journey of resilience, healing, and empowerment. From experiencing childhood homelessness and family violence to navigating the heartbreak of recurrent miscarriages, Sarah opens up about the adversity that has shaped her and the tools that have helped her rise above it.

With openness and wisdom, Sarah shares the practices that have supported her path to healing, highlighting the power of self-love, the importance of community, and the courage it takes to keep showing up when life feels unbearable. She reflects on how personal struggles can impact relationships and offers insight into the ways grief can also deepen connection and compassion.

Sarah also gives a glimpse into the upcoming Empowered Her event, created to inspire women, foster meaningful connection, and remind us all of the strength that comes from standing together. This is an episode about finding light in the shadows, embracing vulnerability, and choosing resilience as a way forward.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction and Sensitive Topics Warning

00:51 Meet Sarah Villiamu: A Journey of Resilience

03:29 Life Changes: Pregnancy and Family Dynamics

05:12 Behind the Smile: The Reality of Miscarriage

08:33 Coping with Loss: Tools for Healing

10:40 The Complexity of Grief and Support

14:28 Navigating Relationships Through Grief

17:00 The Role of Friends in Times of Loss

18:06 Childhood Experiences: A Unique Upbringing

22:58 Impact of Family Violence on Relationships

25:03 Escaping Reality: Coping Mechanisms

26:24 The Journey to Modeling and Body Image

30:05 Self-Acceptance and Inner Healing

37:16 Creating Community: The Self Love Supply

39:43 Empowered Her Event: A Space for Women

43:14 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

Follow and connect with Sarah below:

Instagram @sarahviliamu

Instagram @theselflovesupply

Tiktok @sarahviliamu

Find out more about The Empowered Her Event here.

Empowered Her 2025 Event Discount Code = Use the code BTS50 for $50 off the ticket price!

To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠

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Ep 137. Numbing the Pain: Alcoholism and Sharp Edge Eye Syndrome with Ryan Bayly

Sun, 24 Aug 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash is joined by Ryan Bayly, who courageously shares his story of 19 years of sobriety, the mental health battles he has faced, and the isolating experience of living with Sharp Edge Eye Syndrome, a condition doctors struggled to believe. For decades, Ryan hid behind a smile, staying quiet about his pain, carrying the weight of loneliness and misunderstanding.

Sobriety became the first step in Ryan’s journey back to himself, helping him rediscover who he truly was beneath the silence and struggle. It opened the door to living fully, embracing travel, and building a life that feels expansive and aligned. He reflects on the freedom that comes from connection, community, and allowing himself to be seen as he really is.

This conversation is a raw and inspiring reminder that even in the depths of silence and struggle, connection can bring light. It’s a testament to resilience, self-acceptance, and the hope that comes from walking the journey of recovery together.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Ryan's Journey

02:49 Daily Life and Sobriety

05:15 The Impact of Mental Health Work

07:57 The Struggles of Social Interactions

10:39 Childhood Experiences and Their Effects

13:06 The Development of Sharp Edge Eye Syndrome

15:48 Coping Mechanisms and Alcoholism

18:33 The Journey to Recovery

21:16 Finding Community and Understanding

23:47 The Importance of Breath and Mindfulness

26:13 The Power of Sharing and Connection

29:23 Non-Negotiables in Life

32:07 Conclusion and Final Thoughts

To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠

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Ep 136. The Healing Technique That Changed Everything for Elle McBride

Sun, 17 Aug 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this inspiring episode, Ash is joined by Elle McBride, a Certified Havening Techniques® Trainer, who opens up about her personal journey through trauma and the healing work that has transformed her life.

Elle shares how discovering Havening became a turning point, not only in her own recovery, but in her ability to help others release the emotional weight of their past. Together, Ash and Elle explore the lasting impact of childhood trauma on adult behavior, and the role of community, self-compassion, and resilience in creating lasting change.

This is a powerful conversation about the deep human need for connection, and the practical tools that can guide us toward emotional freedom and healing.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Elle McBride and Havening Techniques

03:49 Elle's Personal Journey and Transformation

08:33 Understanding Havening Techniques

11:49 The Impact of Havening on Clients

16:28 Elle's Childhood and Early Influences

20:51 Near-Death Experience and Its Significance

25:45 Finding Purpose and Meaning Through Challenges

27:20 Finding Peace Through Struggles

34:34 The Power of Community and Connection

36:06 Understanding Childhood Trauma

44:02 Healing and Building Resilience

47:40 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Elle through social media and her links listed below:

Web:⁠ www.ellelouisemcbride.com⁠

House of Delta:⁠ www.houseofdelta.com⁠

Email: contact@ellelouisemcbride.com

Program Login:⁠ https://havening.podia.com/⁠

Train with Elle:⁠ https://www.houseofdelta.com.au/haveningtraining⁠

Instagram:⁠ @ellelouisemcbride⁠

Facebook:⁠ Elle McBride Official⁠

YouTube:⁠ Elle Louise McBride⁠

Insight Timer:⁠ Elle Louise McBride⁠

TikTok:⁠ @ellelouisemcbride⁠

LinkedIn:⁠ Elle Louise McBride⁠

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Ask Us Anything: Surprise Elopement & Honeymoon Edition!

Sun, 10 Aug 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this heartfelt episode, Ash sits down with her now husband Damian, one week after returning from their surprise elopement and European honeymoon. You guys sent in the questions, and the couple didn’t hold back in answering them. From how they met, to making the decision to elope, what really went down on the wedding day and their favourite memories from the honeymoon, they discuss it all. The conversation also touches on the changes that come with marriage, their future goals, and the keys to maintaining a happy and healthy relationship.

The episode highlights are:

00:48 The Elopement Surprise: A Love Story Unveiled

02:31 How They Met: A Serendipitous Encounter

05:28 Navigating Relationships: Trust and Vulnerability

09:06 The Proposal: A Moment to Remember

10:39 Planning the Elopement: From Bali to Europe

16:24 The Wedding Day: A Dream Come True

21:45 The Honeymoon Adventures: Exploring Europe

27:05 Reflections on Marriage: What Has Changed?

32:22 Lessons Learned: The Importance of Routine

35:53 Courage and Change: Embracing New Beginnings

38:21 What They Love About Each Other: A Deep Connection

42:14 Future Goals: Traveling and Growing Together

44:39 Non-Negotiables for a Healthy Relationship

50:19 Closing Thoughts: Gratitude and Authenticity

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Ep 134. Healing Out Loud: Carlo La Marchesina on Grief, Growth and the Gifts of Sobriety

Sun, 03 Aug 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash welcomes back Carlo La Marchesina for an honest conversation about the realities of recovery and the power of emotional resilience. Carlo shares his personal journey, reflecting on the recent challenges he’s faced including grief, loss, and betrayal, and how these experiences have shaped his approach to life and healing.

Carlo opens up about the daily routines and non-negotiables that keep him grounded after 17 years of consistent sobriety, emphasising the vital role of both physical and mental health. He speaks to the transformative power of vulnerability and emotional expression, and how leaning into community has been essential to his ongoing recovery.

Carlo also discusses the importance of faith and spirituality as cornerstones of his journey, and the inspiration he draws from others walking similar paths. This episode is a testament to the strength found in connection, the courage to feel deeply, and the hope that comes from living authentically one day at a time.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Behind the Smile Podcast

02:38 Carlo's Journey in Recovery

05:14 Daily Life and Routine in Recovery

07:59 The Importance of Physical and Mental Health

10:52 Morning Rituals and Mindfulness Practices

13:27 Vulnerability and Emotional Expression in Recovery

16:22 The Role of Honesty in Long-Term Recovery

19:10 Navigating Grief and Loss

22:04 Challenges Faced in Recent Years

24:37 Finding Purpose in Helping Others

27:21 The Impact of Environment on Recovery

30:22 Coping with Betrayal and Trust Issues

33:06 The Role of Faith and Spirituality

36:12 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

38:49 The Importance of Community and Connection

41:36 Final Thoughts and Reflections on Recovery

You can connect with Carlo through Facebook or the Harmony House website.

To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠

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Ep 133. Breathing Back To Life: Healing, Purpose, and the Power of Vulnerability with Bryce Maher

Sun, 27 Jul 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this inspiring episode, Ash sits down with Bryce, founder of The Breath Code, to explore a journey marked by adversity, healing, and purpose. Bryce opens up about his early battles with addiction and the lingering shadows of childhood trauma, revealing how these experiences shaped his path and ignited a search for deeper meaning.

Through raw honesty and vulnerability, Bryce shares how breathwork became a lifeline, helping him reclaim his mental health and reconnect with himself. He discusses the power of sharing our stories, especially for men who are often taught to hide their struggles, and how vulnerability can be the first step toward true transformation.

Now dedicated to guiding others, Bryce explains how The Breath Code empowers individuals to break cycles of pain and find their own path to healing. This episode is a testament to the courage it takes to face our past, the strength found in community, and the profound impact of breathwork and self-discovery.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Behind the Smile Podcast

02:18 Bryce's Journey: From Pain to Purpose

05:19 The Struggles of Addiction and Mental Health

11:05 Childhood Trauma and Its Impact

18:22 The Turning Point: Rock Bottom and Recovery

23:55 Discovering Breathwork as a Healing Modality

31:38 The Power of Breathwork in Men's Mental Health

37:15 Ayahuasca Experience and Personal Growth

46:14 Navigating Life After Addiction

51:56 The Importance of Sharing Stories

57:23 Non-Negotiables for Authentic Living

You can connect with Bryce through The Breath Code and his personal instagram.

To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠

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Ep 132. The Raw Path to Wholeness: How Blythe Langford Transformed From the Inside Out

Sun, 20 Jul 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash sits down with Blythe Langford, a holistic business mentor, trauma-informed healer, and the definition of resilience. From drowning in debt to building a salon empire, surviving cancer, and radically transforming her life through sobriety, raw veganism and fasting, Blythe’s journey is nothing short of extraordinary.

She shares the bold rituals and unconventional healing practices that have cracked her wide open, revealing a life of deeper purpose, clarity, and connection. With raw honesty, Blythe reflects on the beauty and burnout of the salon world, her ongoing dance with grief and growth, and her mission to reclaim the salon as a sacred space for transformation.

This conversation is a powerful mix of spirituality, strategy, and soul, touching on business as a healing vehicle, turning pain into purpose, and Blythe’s vision to create a retreat and recovery haven for those ready to truly rise.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Blythe Langford's Journey

02:00 Life on the Farm and Daily Rituals

05:54 Hiding Behind a Smile: Blythe's Past Struggles

09:50 Transformative Experiences: Cancer and Lifestyle Changes

13:59 The Power of Fasting and Raw Veganism

19:10 Urine Therapy: A Unique Healing Practice

25:01 Blythe's Hairdressing Journey and Business Acumen

35:48 Transformative Experiences in Business

42:03 Navigating Personal Trauma and Business Challenges

51:52 The Journey of Healing and Self-Discovery

56:53 Future Aspirations and Impactful Projects

You can connect with Blythe through her website or Instagram here.

To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website: ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠

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Ep 131. The Ego Collapse: How Losing Millions Gifted Him a New Perspective, with Kyle Stagoll

Sun, 13 Jul 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash is joined by Kyle Stagoll, a crypto trader whose world came crashing down overnight with the collapse of FTX, one of the largest cryptocurrency exchanges in history. What started as a story of rapid success turned into a sobering fall, as Kyle faced the unthinkable: losing everything he’d built.

Kyle speaks with raw honesty about the emotional aftermath of that loss, the depression, the isolation, and the shame that followed. He opens up about how childhood wounds shaped his drive for external success, and how hitting rock bottom forced him to confront the patterns of self-sabotage that had quietly followed him for years.

But Kyle’s story doesn’t end in the wreckage. Through deep self-reflection and a commitment to personal growth, he began the slow, steady climb back, this time with a different compass. He shares how mindset work, neuroplasticity, and a redefinition of success helped him rebuild a life grounded in purpose, presence, and freedom.

This is a powerful conversation about loss, resilience, and the healing that happens when we stop performing and start showing up as our true selves.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Behind the Smile

03:04 Kyle's Journey: From Success to Setback

05:58 Life After Loss: Coping with Depression

08:57 The Impact of FTX: A Financial Catastrophe

11:57 Navigating the Aftermath: Rebuilding Life

15:07 Reflections on Resilience and Growth

25:07 From Rock Bottom to Resilience

31:30 Childhood Influences and Family Dynamics

35:46 Overcoming Self-Sabotage in Trading

39:59 The Power of Mindset and Neuroplasticity

43:17 Redefining Success and Self-Worth

47:14 The Importance of Freedom and Giving Back

51:40 Lessons Learned from Financial Losses

You can connect with Kyle through Instagram, YouTube, Facebook and LinkedIn.

To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠

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Ep 130. Burnout, Betrayal & Healing Through the Body, with Psychotherapist Rachel Pfeiffer

Sun, 06 Jul 2025 15:22:20 GMT

In this episode, Ash speaks with Rachel Pfeiffer, a psychotherapist and yoga teacher, who shares her journey of healing from trauma, the importance of self-care, and the intersection of psychotherapy and yoga. Rachel opens up about a traumatic time in her life when her identity was not only stolen but exploited, resulting in a landmark court case and subsequent sentencing.

She also shares her insights and experiences with burnout, the significance of relationships, and how she continues to show up authentically. The conversation explores the complexities of trauma, the healing process, and the role of movement and breath in supporting mental health.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Rachel Pfeiffer

02:27 Daily Life and Finding Fun

06:43 Hiding Behind a Smile: A Personal Story

14:58 The Impact of Trauma and Healing

25:59 The Journey to Becoming a Psychotherapist

30:54 Understanding Psychotherapy vs. Psychology

35:10 The Journey to Becoming a Yoga Teacher

39:30 Integrating Yoga and Psychotherapy

44:01 Navigating Relationships in Therapy

49:00 Embracing the Messiness of Life

57:02 Non-Negotiables for Authentic Living

You can connect with Rachel through her website or Instagram here.

To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠

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Ep 129. The Son of a Bank Robber Who Chose a Different Path, with Peter Norris

Sun, 29 Jun 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash is joined by author Peter Norris, a CEO, world-class athlete and the son of one of Australia’s most notorious bank robbers.

Peter’s early years were shaped by instability, violence, and addiction, but what unfolds in this conversation is not just a story of survival, it’s one of profound transformation.

Peter opens up about the pivotal moments that changed the trajectory of his life: the unlikely mentors who showed him kindness, the brave choices that led him away from generational trauma, and the deep belief that no matter where you come from, you can choose a different path.

Now a powerful leader and passionate advocate for vulnerable children, Peter shares how fostering has helped him heal parts of his own past, and how writing his memoir became a cathartic and courageous act of service.

This episode is a testament to the strength of the human spirit, the impact of compassion, and the radical power of choosing to break the cycle.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Peter's Journey

02:55 Life as a Criminal's Son

05:48 The Impact of Addiction

08:57 Childhood Memories and Trauma

12:11 The Search for Normalcy

14:56 The Role of Family Dynamics

17:59 Early Signs of Criminal Influence

21:06 Coping Mechanisms and Resilience

24:10 Reflections on Intuition and Trust

26:54 The Absence of a Mother

29:55 Life in State Care

33:08 Turning Adversity into Motivation

36:03 Navigating Early Life Challenges

39:15 Lessons in Leadership and Kindness

42:11 A Pivotal Decision at 13

46:56 The Impact of Family and Routine

51:17 Fueling the Fire for Success

52:50 The Journey of Fostering

54:56 The Power of Lived Experience

55:43 The Birth of a Book

01:00:35 Bravery and Authenticity in Life Choices

You can visit Pete’s website here.

Or purchase the book here.

To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠

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Ep 128. Sobriety, Spirit & Showing Up Fully: Sheridan Rose Shaw on Leading with Heart

Sun, 22 Jun 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this heartfelt episode, Ash is joined by Sheridan Rose Shaw, an award-winning creative director celebrated for her work in the hairdressing industry. She shares her powerful journey of recovery, identity, and self-acceptance.

Sheridan speaks openly about her path to sobriety, the transformative impact of breathwork, and the complex reality of parenting while navigating her own healing.

Together, Ash and Sheridan explore what it means to live a life beyond just sobriety. They discuss how to navigate recovery while living a big full life, showing up authentically and the courage it takes to lead with vulnerability and purpose.

Sheridan also opens up about the struggles she faced getting clean in her early 20s, and the reason why she continues to put in the work today, never taking her recovery for granted.

From honesty and spiritual growth, to creating meaningful experiences for others and embracing opportunities with an open heart. This is a raw and empowering conversation about resilience, passion, and the beauty of coming home to yourself.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Authenticity and Recovery

02:55 Sheridan's Journey in Hairdressing and Sobriety

06:00 The Role of Breathwork in Recovery

09:02 Parenting and Relationships in Recovery

11:58 Living Life Beyond Recovery

14:56 Judgment and Community in Recovery

17:57 The Photo: Hiding Behind a Smile

22:16 Navigating Personal Transformation

23:30 The Challenge of Authenticity

24:47 Faking It in Client Services

25:50 Compartmentalizing Emotions

27:18 Reflections on Past Struggles

30:32 The Journey of Recovery

32:51 Understanding Rock Bottom

35:13 Embracing Sensitivity as Strength

36:26 Leadership and Team Dynamics

39:03 Creating Meaningful Client Experiences

40:34 The Power of Passion and Purpose

42:34 The Role of Substance in Pain Management

44:50 The Drive for Continuous Growth

50:19 The Power of Unconditional Love

52:11 Facing Fears and Embracing Change

54:42 The Journey of Self-Discovery and Hard Work

56:15 Learning from Failure and Resilience

01:01:09 Navigating Relationships in Recovery

01:07:20 Spiritual Growth and Connection

01:17:35 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Sheridan through her Instagram or her Salon Mamawest.

To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠

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Ep 127. GRIT Over Glory: Former AFL Star Steven Baker on Grief, Identity & Redemption

Sun, 15 Jun 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this raw and inspiring conversation, Ash is joined by former AFL player Steven Baker who opens up about his story including life after football, hitting rock bottom and turning his life around.

After being unexpectedly cut from his AFL career, Steven spiraled into grief, substance abuse, and deep depression, especially following the death of his father. He opens up about how a life of discipline and team camaraderie gave way to escapism, endless partying, and identity loss.

Ash and Steven explore the emotional aftermath of elite sport, the stigma around men’s mental health, and what finally helped Steven turn things around. From creating a GRIT model for schools, to competitive boxing, to daily gratitude and appreciation practices.

Steven shares a powerful message of mental resilience, vulnerability, and hope.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Authenticity and Resilience

02:03 Stephen Baker: From AFL Star to Inspirational Speaker

07:58 Facing Personal Struggles: The Dark Side of Fame

12:03 The Impact of Grief and Depression

19:57 Finding Strength Through Fitness and Community

21:58 The Power of Gratitude and Resilience

26:00 Turning Points: A Journey from Darkness to Light

30:42 Breaking the Silence: Men's Mental Health

32:00 Building a Morning Routine for Success

39:07 Giving Back: Inspiring the Next Generation

42:04 Finding Motivation in Dark Times

You can connect with Steven on his Instagram here.

To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠

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Ep 126. Inside the Messy Middle: Divorce, Identity & Rebuilding from Rock Bottom with Shannon Pirie

Mon, 09 Jun 2025 00:02:18 GMT

In this powerful episode, Ash is joined by Shannon Pirie, a global beauty executive with decades of experience and a heart-first approach to leadership. From the outside, Shannon’s life looked picture-perfect. But behind the scenes, she was enduring one of the most painful and transformative years of her life: losing her marriage, dream home, and job in quick succession.

Shannon opens up about hitting emotional rock bottom, crawling her way through survival mode, and rebuilding one step (and one shuffle) at a time. She speaks candidly about the shame of losing everything, the complexities of grief and forgiveness, and how she began a deep physical and emotional transformation, walking herself back to life, one mile at a time.

Now based in Redondo Beach and reconnecting with her truest self, Shannon reflects on the power of female friendships, spiritual surrender, and the courage to live honestly even in the middle of the mess. This is an episode about resilience, grace, and choosing peace in the absence of the perfect ending.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Shannon's Journey

03:01 Navigating Personal Struggles and Professional Life

05:59 The Impact of Divorce on Identity

08:53 The Role of Work in Personal Crisis

11:53 Reflections on Loss and Healing

15:05 Understanding Financial Security and Relationships

18:00 The Path to Self-Discovery and Growth

26:42 The Turning Point: Divorce and Transformation

32:41 Loss and Identity: Selling the Dream Home

38:54 The Unraveling: Job Loss and Self-Reflection

46:51 Physical Transformation: The Journey of Weight Loss

56:15 Finding Purpose in the Middle: Navigating Life's Challenges

01:01:11 Embracing Life's Challenges

01:08:39 The Power of Community and Friendship

01:15:44 Finding Truth and Surrendering to Life

01:21:09 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Shannon through Instagram here.

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Ep 125. The Power of EMDR: Rewiring Trauma and Reclaiming Your Truth, with Boaz Gilboa

Sun, 01 Jun 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash Butterss sits down with Boaz Gilboa, founder of MindCalmr, osteopath, and trauma-informed coach, to explore what it really takes to reclaim emotional freedom after trauma.

Boaz opens up about his journey through divorce, addiction, and family dysfunction, and how programs like NA, ACOA, CODA, and Debtors Anonymous each played a unique role in his growth. He shares how his experience with EMDR inspired him to create MindCalmr, a platform making high-quality trauma processing tools free and accessible.

Ash and Boaz discuss the connection between nervous system dysregulation, self-sabotage, and inherited beliefs, how trauma can manifest in subtle ways, and why personal truth is never absolute. This conversation is both intellectually rich and deeply practical, providing tools and reflections for anyone seeking to break free from old patterns and step into a life of authenticity, compassion, and emotional sovereignty.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Unmasking the Truth Behind the Smile

03:10 Beau's Journey: From Science to Healing

06:05 The Impact of Family Dynamics on Personal Growth

09:13 Navigating the 12-Step Fellowships

12:01 Exploring Codependency and Self-Worth

15:13 Understanding Trauma and Its Effects

18:03 The Role of Parenting in Emotional Development

21:03 Finding Balance in Parenting and Self-Care

24:12 The Journey of Financial Responsibility

26:59 Defining Codependency and Its Manifestations

32:05 Emotional Independence in Relationships

34:52 Choosing Yourself: The Journey of Separation

36:44 The Impact of Parenting on Future Generations

37:56 Exploring EMDR Therapy and Its Benefits

43:03 Redefining Truth in Healing

48:40 The Connection Between Trauma and Self-Sabotage

52:42 Developing a Personal Higher Power

57:17 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Boaz through the MindCalmr website here.

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Ep 124. The Lie of Moderation and the Freedom That Follows, with Georgie Irvine

Sun, 25 May 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this week’s episode, Ash is joined by Georgie Irvine, a sobriety and mindset coach and owner of Thrivalist, a global community for sober-curious women. After decades of binge drinking and years of attempting to moderate, Georgie shares the moment she finally called herself out and the freedom she’s found on the other side of alcohol.

Georgie speaks candidly about her early days in sobriety, the shame and self-betrayal that came with trying to moderate, and how life changed when she drew a line in the sand. She shares tools that helped her break free, including the concept of the “inner mentor” and the power of playing the tape forward. Georgie also opens up about how her relationship with her husband transformed, the challenges of parenting teens with a sober mindset, and why she paused her own podcast to protect her energy.

This is a story of self-leadership, boundary setting, and the deep peace that comes when we finally stop negotiating with alcohol and start showing up for ourselves.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Georgie Irvine and Her Journey

03:09 Navigating Life Changes and Personal Growth

06:04 Daily Routines and Self-Care Practices

09:11 The Impact of Sobriety on Relationships

12:06 Hiding Behind a Smile: The Struggles of Alcoholism

14:56 The Journey to Sobriety: Overcoming Addiction

17:50 The Challenge of Moderation and Alcohol Dependency

29:42 The Struggle with Moderation

32:00 The Decision to Embrace Sobriety

34:40 Breaking Free from Alcohol's Grip

36:21 Tools for Overcoming Addiction

39:08 Sobriety as an Act of Self-Care

40:50 Navigating Relationships in Sobriety

43:40 Busting Myths About Sobriety

45:41 Communicating Your Sobriety Journey

48:17 Setting Boundaries for Self-Care

52:45 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Georgie on Instagram here, or through the Thrivalist website.

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Ep 123. From The Moulin Rouge to Meditation: Kristian Crowe’s Spiritual Return

Sun, 18 May 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash Butterss sits down with yoga and meditation teacher Kristian Crowe, whose story is one of reinvention, dharma, and finding peace after years of striving. From a decade-long career in musical theatre to life in a Melbourne ashram, Kristian shares what it means to walk away from the roles we’ve outgrown and come home to ourselves.

Kristian reflects on his early identity as a performer, living for applause, feeling disconnected, and secretly unraveling behind a perfect smile. He recounts the turning point when, after touring internationally and landing a dream role, he realised that success hadn’t brought the wholeness he expected.

What followed was a complete transformation. In this conversation, Kristian opens up about the grief of letting go, the power of yoga and meditation, and how returning to India for teacher training changed everything. He now teaches from a place of deep inner connection, moving beyond performance and into true service.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Authentic Living

02:58 Kristian's Journey into Yoga and Meditation

06:05 Transformation in India: Immersive Meditation Training

11:55 Navigating Relationships and Personal Growth

17:56 The Struggles Behind the Smile: A Performer’s Story

24:10 Ego Death and Embracing a New Identity

30:10 The Healing Journey Through Yoga and Self-Acceptance

34:15 The Evolution of Teaching and Learning

39:10 Non-Striving in Practice

44:51 The Power of Stillness

49:21 Compassion Through Self-Understanding

53:16 Navigating Intimate Relationships

58:10 Balancing Material Needs and Spiritual Practices

You can connect with Kristian via Instagram and through his website here.

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Ep 122. The Holistic Psychologist: Why I Chose to Leave My Relationship with a 6-Month Old Baby

Sun, 11 May 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash reconnects with Laura Corcoran, a Holistic Psychologist and mother of three. Just four weeks after a life-altering breakup and with a six-month-old baby in her arms, Laura joins Ash to talk candidly about what it means to unravel, release, and rise.

Laura opens up about walking away from a relationship that no longer aligned, the fears and shame she faced in doing so, and the soul corrections that continue to unfold in her healing journey. She shares how victim consciousness, nervous system regulation, and inner child work have helped her break cycles of hyper-independence and self-abandonment.

This episode is a powerful reflection on reclaiming power, sitting with grief, and how motherhood can both dismantle and reforge identity. With insight, vulnerability, and compassion, Laura shows how choosing self-trust, even when terrified, can open the door to a more expansive life.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Laura's Journey

02:59 Daily Life and Self-Care Practices

06:04 Navigating Change and Transformation

08:59 The Impact of Relationships on Personal Growth

12:04 Understanding Victim Consciousness

14:46 Facing Fears and Making Bold Decisions

17:56 The Role of Shame in Personal Transformation

21:06 Choosing Your Highest Timeline

31:59 Navigating Grief and Emotional Healing

40:04 Empowerment Through Motherhood and Relationships

44:11 The Victim-Villain-Rescuer Dynamic

51:13 Recognizing Needs in Relationships

56:01 Personal Growth and Energetic Alignment

You can connect with Laura through her Instagram or website here.

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Ep 121. The Truth About Recovery (That No One Talks About), with Ian Cron

Sun, 04 May 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this latest episode, Ash sits down with Ian Cron, a bestselling author, psychotherapist, Enneagram teacher, and Episcopal priest, to explore the power of recovery, the importance of spiritual growth, and what it really means to heal from the inside out.

Ian opens up about his decades-long journey in and out of 12-step recovery, including a relapse in 2020 after many years of sobriety. He shares the turning point that brought him back to the steps, and how going through the process with fresh eyes gave him a new understanding of addiction, spirituality, and lasting transformation.

Drawing on his latest book, The Fix, Ian reframes the 12 steps as a universal design for living, offering clarity for anyone seeking to heal broken relationships with self, others, and a higher power. Ash and Ian also discuss the connection between personality, behavior, and healing, the role of the Enneagram in understanding ourselves more deeply, and why true recovery goes far beyond just giving up a substance.

This episode is a heartfelt and intellectually rich conversation about grace, growth, and spiritual freedom, whether you identify as being in recovery or not.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Ian Cron and His Journey

04:35 Daily Life and Morning Routines

07:30 Hiding Behind a Smile: The Photo Story

12:18 The Impact of the 12 Steps

18:59 The Spiritual Awakening Through the Steps

24:09 Overcoming Resistance to a Higher Power

29:10 The Journey to Self-Discovery

33:14 Understanding the Enneagram and Addiction

37:13 The Nature of Addiction and Self-Soothing

39:56 The Concept of Being a 'Dry Drunk'

43:30 Navigating Recovery and Sharing Stories

47:41 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Ian Cron on Instagram here or through his website here.

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Ep 120. One Decision to Change Your Entire Life, with Kate Goold

Sun, 27 Apr 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash sits down with Kate Goold, a working mum of two who recently celebrated her first year alcohol-free. Kate’s journey began with chronic physical pain and three hip replacements in four years—an ordeal that left her on crutches, in and out of hospitals, and barely able to care for her children. But what began as a decision to help her body heal physically sparked something much deeper: a complete emotional and spiritual transformation.

Kate shares her experience with chronic pain, debilitating depression, and self-medicating, all while trying to maintain the appearance of having it together. She opens up about the turning point that led her to quit drinking, the unexpected grief and growth that came with that choice, and the clarity she’s found in sobriety.

Now 18 months into her alcohol-free journey, Kate is showing up for herself and her family in a way she never thought possible. She reflects on identity, boundaries, motherhood, and what it means to truly come home to yourself. Her story is a powerful reminder that healing isn’t linear, but it is possible and even one small decision can lead to a million changes.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Authenticity and Sobriety

03:03 Kate's Journey to Sobriety

06:09 Daily Life and New Routines

09:07 Transformative Fitness and Mental Health

12:08 The Role of Forgiveness and Discipline

14:49 Hiding Behind a Smile: The Struggles of Depression

18:02 Self-Medicating and the Impact of Pain

20:57 Turning Point: The Decision to Quit Drinking

23:58 Preparation for Sobriety

26:55 Reflections on Alcohol and Confidence

34:10 Navigating Sugar Cravings and Caffeine Choices

35:36 The Journey of Alcohol Abstinence

36:35 Building a New Life Without Alcohol

37:48 The Importance of Community Support

38:53 Facing Social Situations Sober

40:31 Realizing the Lifelong Commitment to Sobriety

41:31 Embracing New Experiences and Overcoming FOMO

43:08 Learning from Mistakes and Staying Vigilant

44:32 The Evolution of Friendships

46:29 Finding Deeper Connections

47:59 The Impact of Sobriety on Parenting

49:27 Personal Growth and Self-Discovery

51:25 The Role of Mental Health in Sobriety

53:00 Cherishing Everyday Moments

54:33 Advice for Those Considering Sobriety

56:06 The Journey of Self-Respect and Boundaries

You can connect with Kate Goold on Instagram here.

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Ep 119. From Million-Dollar Listings to a Midlife Reawakening, with Andrew Campbell

Sun, 20 Apr 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this week’s episode, Ash sits down with Andrew Campbell, founder of Hush Property and a respected figure in Melbourne’s high-end real estate market. Known for selling luxury homes with discretion and heart, Andrew shares a side of himself few ever see—the man behind the polished exterior, and the deeply personal journey that shaped him.

Andrew opens up about losing his father at age 22, growing up with a mother living with bipolar disorder, and how work became both a coping mechanism and an addiction. From battling insecurities and being bullied at school to navigating grief, divorce, financial setbacks, and public criticism, Andrew reflects on the moments that brought him to his knees and the mindset shifts that helped him stand back up.

Now 50, and entering what he calls his “second act,” Andrew shares how cold immersion, gut health, affirmations, inner child work, and spiritual practices have helped him redefine what success truly means. This is a powerful story of vulnerability, fatherhood, and the quiet transformation that happens when someone decides to stop performing and start living.

The episode highlights are:

04:31 Daily Life and Holistic Wellbeing

07:12 Hiding Behind a Smile: Andrew's Struggles

13:00 Childhood Reflections: The Fat Boy Struggle

15:14 Family Dynamics: Growing Up with Mental Illness

18:03 The Impact of Grief: Losing a Father at 22

22:07 Navigating Young Adulthood: Partying and Loss

25:23 Coping with Mental Illness in the Family

27:24 Career Transition: From Personal Trainer to Real Estate

27:43 From Business Setbacks to Real Estate Success

30:05 The Drive for Success and Competitive Spirit

31:14 Overcoming Financial Struggles and Criticism

34:49 Navigating Criticism and Embracing Change

36:30 The Power of Self-Talk and Mindset

38:11 Health Practices: Cold Water, Sauna, and Gut Health

41:34 The Importance of Following Your Intuition

44:41 Reality TV: A New Challenge and Branding Opportunity

49:24 Personal Growth and Comfort in One's Skin

52:50 Looking Ahead: Family and Presence Over Material Success

55:03 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Andrew Campbell on his Instagram or through the Hush website.

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Ep 118. Rewiring The Subconscious and Healing Your Trauma, with Katharine McLean

Sun, 13 Apr 2025 19:00:00 GMT

In this powerful episode, Ash sits down with Katharine McLean, a holistic counselor, trauma-informed mentor, and founder of The Light Becomes Her. With over 23 years of experience guiding others through healing, Katharine shares her deeply personal journey through addiction, recovery, and inner transformation.

After decades of high-functioning alcohol use and hidden drug addiction, Katharine hit rock bottom while leading mental health teams by day and battling inner chaos by night.

In this conversation, Ash and Katharine dive into the root causes of addiction, childhood trauma, and the disconnection from self that fuels destructive behaviors. Katharine opens up about how she used inner child work, subconscious reprogramming, and spiritual practices to rebuild her identity from the inside out.

This is an intimate and enlightening conversation about healing the nervous system, rewiring belief systems, and stepping into a life of authenticity, service, and grace. If you’ve ever wondered what’s possible beyond addiction, this episode will leave you inspired.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Katharine McLean

03:05 Katharine's Daily Life and Practices

05:54 Overcoming Barriers to Ecstatic Dance

08:59 Hiding Behind a Smile: Katharine's Photo Story

14:55 The Reality of Addiction: Functioning Alcoholism

20:00 Childhood Experiences and Their Impact

28:02 Seeking Approval and Relationship Patterns

31:00 The Role of Inner Child Work in Healing

38:16 The Illusion of Quick Fixes

41:46 Meditation as a Tool for Transformation

45:46 The Breaking Point: A Journey to Sobriety

52:30 From Recovery to Empowerment: Building a Business

56:29 Emotional Regulation: The Mind-Body Connection

01:01:35 Navigating Business and Personal Growth

01:06:36 The Power of Choice in Recovery

You can connect with Katharine McLean on her Instagram or through her website.

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Ep 117. Learning to Grow Through What You Go Through, with Rod Butterss

Sun, 06 Apr 2025 18:00:00 GMT

In this deeply personal episode, Ash sits down with her dad, Rod Butterss, a seasoned entrepreneur, former AFL club president, and long-time member of the recovery community.

Together, they reflect on life in recovery, the reality of relapse, cultivating self-awareness, and what it means to truly reinvent yourself at any stage of life.

Rod opens up about his recent relapse after more than a decade of sobriety and the humility and courage it took to come back and start again. With honesty and warmth, he shares stories from his life, including his busy childhood in a household of 12, navigating trauma, addiction, enormous success, financial loss, and rebuilding with purpose.

Ash and Rod explore the emotional landscape of identity, love, intimacy, and grief, and how Rod is using this chapter of his life to reflect, heal, and deepen his spiritual practices. They also discuss his ambitious new venture in biotechnology and why he's more committed than ever to living in alignment and being of service.

This is a story about second chances, self-reflection, and the power of choosing to grow through what you go through.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Transformation and Recovery

02:59 The Importance of Family Bonds

05:49 Navigating Recovery and Self-Education

08:56 Public Perception vs. Personal Struggles

11:59 The Role of Vulnerability in Recovery

15:01 Understanding Relapse and Its Impact

18:06 Exploring Childhood Trauma and Relationships

20:54 The Journey of Self-Discovery and Acceptance

23:56 The Power of Intuition and Energy

26:50 Grief, Masculinity, and Emotional Expression

31:07 Navigating Grief and Coping Strategies

34:30 Resilience and Life's Unexpected Turns

39:20 The Journey of Entrepreneurship and Generosity

45:32 Taking Steps Towards Change and Recovery

49:03 Understanding Choices and Personal Growth

55:51 Facing Addiction and Seeking Help

You can connect with Rod Butterss on his Linkedin.

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Ep 116. Finding Freedom in Fitness, with Niki Kiskiras

Sun, 30 Mar 2025 18:00:00 GMT

In this latest episode, Ash sits down with beauty corporate executive and fitness instructor Niki Kiskiras. Beyond her career achievements, Niki shares her deeply personal journey of self-discovery, overcoming societal expectations, and reclaiming her independence after ending her marriage in her late 20s.

Coming from a traditional Greek-Australian background, Niki opens up about the immense shame and fear she faced when making the decision to leave her marriage, a life path she had followed because it was what was “expected.” She reflects on the pressure to present a perfect life while internally feeling lost, the guilt of disappointing her family, and the reality of choosing herself despite cultural norms and external judgment.

Ash and Niki explore how fitness became a powerful tool for self-liberation, how her relationships evolved post-divorce, and why she ultimately stepped into a life of authenticity, personal growth, and fearless reinvention. They also discuss Nikki’s decision to freeze her eggs as an act of self-empowerment, navigating grief in unexpected moments, and what it means to truly invest in oneself.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Transformation and Authenticity

02:52 Niki's Journey: From Corporate to Fitness Instructor

06:05 The Impact of Family and Cultural Background

08:57 Navigating Life's Challenges and Personal Growth

12:08 Hiding Behind a Smile: The Wedding Photo Story

14:57 The Decision to Separate: Fear and Shame

17:54 Finding Authenticity and Purpose

21:02 The Role of Fitness in Personal Transformation

23:45 Living Consciously: The Relationship with Alcohol

31:05 Navigating Personal Growth and Friendships

36:01 The Journey of Egg Freezing

42:30 Understanding Relationship Needs

52:24 The Reality Behind Social Media

57:31 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Niki Kiskiras on her fitness page Instagram.

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Ep 115. It’s Never Too Late to Start Over, with Belinda Stark

Sun, 23 Mar 2025 18:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash sits down with Alcohol and Midlife Coach, Belinda Stark, who shows that it’s never too late to transform your life after making her own significant changes in her mid-50s. After running a successful fashion business for over a decade, Belinda made the bold decision to change careers, inspired by her own journey of overcoming depression, breast cancer, divorce, and a complex relationship with alcohol.

Belinda shares her personal struggles, including postnatal depression and hospitalisation after the birth of her second son, the moment she realised alcohol was no longer serving her, and how she finally found the courage to step into sobriety. She reflects on the tools that helped her along the way, the challenges of reprogramming deep-seated beliefs, and the incredible shifts she has experienced in her relationships, self-esteem, and overall happiness.

Ash and Belinda also discuss the importance of self-compassion, navigating midlife reinvention, and why it’s never too late to make a change.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Transformation and Resilience

02:39 Belinda Stark: A Journey of Courage

08:28 Hiding Behind the Smile: The Struggles Within

18:02 Childhood Influences and Early Habits

22:50 The Turning Point: Acknowledging Alcoholism

26:36 Facing Breast Cancer: A Life-Altering Diagnosis

30:09 Overcoming Health Challenges

33:08 The Role of Mindset in Recovery

35:16 The Journey to Sobriety Begins

39:39 Tapering vs. Cold Turkey: Finding What Works

40:59 Navigating Social Situations Sober

47:27 Tools for Sustaining Sobriety

49:02 Transforming Relationships Through Sobriety

53:44 Empowering Change in Midlife

55:53 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Belinda Stark on Instagram or through her website.

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Ep 114. The True Cost of Success, with Ryan Trainor

Sun, 16 Mar 2025 18:00:00 GMT

In this latest episode, Ash has a deep and powerful conversation with Ryan Trainor, exploring his transformative journey from a successful entrepreneur to a more authentic and balanced human.

They discuss the importance of curiosity, connection, and the need to let go of control in life. Ryan shares his experiences with mental health, the pressures of success, and the impact of childhood on his quest for relevance. The conversation also touches on the use of psychedelics for personal growth and the empowerment that comes from taking responsibility for your relationships and experiences.

Ash and Ryan explore the constructs of reality, the importance of community and connection, and the journey of personal growth through challenges. They discuss the need for open conversations, the impact of facing rock bottom, and the transformative power of meditation and mindfulness.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Transformation and Authenticity

01:47 Ryan Treanor's Entrepreneurial Journey and Wake-Up Call

03:06 Curiosity and Connection in Life

09:13 Letting Go of Control and Embracing Faith

11:24 Hiding Behind a Smile: The Cost of Success

18:15 Childhood Influences and the Quest for Relevance

24:39 Empowerment Through Responsibility and Relationships

27:19 Exploring Psychedelics and Personal Growth

32:04 The Constructs of Reality

34:06 Defining Our Avatars

36:25 The Need for Connection

37:51 Navigating Community and Authenticity

40:13 The Power of Open Conversations

44:20 Facing Rock Bottom

49:32 Meditation and Mindfulness

53:25 Shifting Desires and Values

57:16 Creating Meaningful Memories

01:00:14 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Ryan Trainor on Instagram or LinkedIn.

Listen to Ash and her dad’s episode on Trainable here.

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Ep 113. Navigating Divorce in Sobriety, with Kath Elliott

Sun, 09 Mar 2025 18:00:00 GMT

In this episode, Ash welcomes back a friend of the show, Kath Elliott, an alcohol mindset coach now entering her sixth year of sobriety. Kath returns to share openly about her recent experience of navigating divorce in sobriety.

Kath discusses the fears that held her back, and how she ultimately made the decision to choose herself. Ash and Kath go on to discuss the emotional rollercoaster of grief, self-discovery, and learning to sit with discomfort, and how Kath found clarity through sobriety.

The ladies also explore dating sober, redefining wealth beyond finances, and the power of stepping into life’s unknowns with courage. If you’ve ever questioned whether staying is harder than leaving, or if you’re afraid of what’s on the other side of a massive life transition—this episode is for you.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Welcome Back: A Familiar Face

03:08 Navigating Life Changes: Grief and Divorce

05:55 The Decision to Separate: A Journey of Intuition

08:49 The Impact of Sobriety on Relationships

11:57 Children and Separation: A Delicate Balance

14:52 Redefining Success: Lessons from Marriage

18:02 Embracing the Unknown: The Power of Self-Love

20:52 Facing Fears: Financial and Emotional Challenges

24:09 The Journey of Dating Sober

26:54 Wealth Beyond Money: Redefining Abundance

30:06 Looking Ahead: Love and New Beginnings

33:08 Non-Negotiables for an Authentic Life

You can connect with Kath Elliot on Instagram or through her website.

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Ep 112. From Reality Star to Rock Bottom and Recovery, with Davey Lloyd

Sun, 02 Mar 2025 18:00:00 GMT

In this episode of Behind the Smile, Ash is joined by former reality TV star Davey Lloyd, who you might recognise from shows including The Bachelorette and Bachelor in Paradise. Now a builder living in Sydney, Davey opens up about his struggles with addiction which took him to the brink of death after overdosing in 2023.

In this candid conversation, Davey shares his harrowing journey through addiction, a life-threatening seizure, and the path he is now on in recovery. He reflects on the moments that led to his near-death experience, the emotional turmoil that followed, and the transformative power of rehabilitation. Davey discusses the importance of self-discovery, the challenges of maintaining sobriety, and his commitment to helping others facing similar struggles.

This interview is as raw and unfiltered as it gets.

The episode highlights include:

03:02 Valentine's Day Reflections and Sobriety

06:04 Daily Life and Struggles with Motivation

08:57 Understanding Addiction and Mental Health

11:58 The Impact of Childhood on Adult Behavior

14:49 The Burden of Shame and Guilt

18:05 Living Amends and Personal Growth

21:02 The Slow Process of Recovery

23:46 Learning to Connect Authentically

27:09 The Reality of Hair Loss and Substance Abuse

28:58 The Overdose Experience and Its Aftermath

32:31 The Turning Point: A Life-Altering Experience

39:06 Confronting Addiction: The Aftermath of a Seizure

48:35 Rehabilitation: A Journey of Self-Discovery

55:08 Finding Balance: Life After Rehab

01:01:15 Looking Ahead: Writing a Memoir and Advocacy

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Ep 111. Solo Episode: How I Made It To 5 Years Sober!

Sun, 23 Feb 2025 18:26:47 GMT

In this special solo episode of Behind the Smile, Ash Butterss marks a huge milestone—five years of sobriety. Reflecting on her journey from rock bottom to a life beyond her wildest dreams, Ash shares the raw truth about what it really takes to break free from addiction and step into a life of clarity, peace, and purpose.

From walking into rehab convinced she’d learn to “drink like a lady” to realising she needed to create an entirely new life, Ash opens up about the lessons, struggles, and profound shifts that have shaped her over the last five years. She talks about overcoming shame, rebuilding self-trust, and learning to surrender to something bigger than herself.

If you’re navigating your own transformation, whether in sobriety or any other area of life, this episode is filled with wisdom, hope, and a powerful reminder that real change happens one small step at a time.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Celebrating Five Years of Sobriety

02:55 Reflecting on the Journey to Recovery

06:10 The Transformation of Life Post-Rehab

09:00 Understanding the Roots of Addiction

11:55 The Role of Self-Discovery in Sobriety

15:11 Building a New Life After Addiction

17:57 The Importance of Community and Support

20:55 Facing Challenges in Early Sobriety

23:45 The Shift in Perspective on Alcohol

26:48 Embracing Change and Growth

30:03 The Power of Small Steps in Recovery

32:57 Finding Freedom in Sobriety

36:12 A Message of Hope and Encouragement

The episode I referenced is called: Ep 61. Impulsivity, genetics and the science of addiction with Aaron Thomas

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Ep 110. The Truth About Healing at 20+ Years Sober, with Dean Beattie

Sun, 16 Feb 2025 18:00:00 GMT

In the latest episode of Behind the Smile, host Ash speaks with Dean Beattie, a longevity coach who’s overcome his own struggles with addiction. Having been sober for over 20+ years now, Dean shares candidly about the challenges he’s faced in recovery including healing his relationship with his family, overcoming financial fears and forming healthy intimate relationships.

He reflects on the role of validation in his life and how he found the strength to get sober at the age of 28, ultimately transforming his life through the 12-step program and mindfulness practices. Dean also discusses the impact of grief, the role of therapy, and the significance of support systems for men. He also highlights the need for authentic connections and the benefits of holistic practices like yoga.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Behind the Smile: Introduction to Authenticity

05:05 Dean's Journey: From Addiction to Recovery

10:09 The Impact of Childhood on Addiction

14:52 The Role of Validation and Intimacy in Addiction

20:05 The Turning Point: Getting Sober at 28

25:08 The Transformation: Life After Recovery

29:28 Taking Ownership and Finding Peace

31:17 Navigating Grief and Loss

34:33 The Role of Therapy and Healing Modalities

37:15 Confronting Temptations and Living Authentically

40:30Making Amends and Family Dynamics

43:45 Men's Mental Health and Support Systems

46:34The Impact of Role Models on Men

48:26 Yoga: A Path to Connection and Healing

52:36 The Men's Reboot Program: A Holistic Approach

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Ep 109. 100 Days To Change Your Life, with Sober Flourish Founder Jodi Clark

Mon, 10 Feb 2025 01:14:39 GMT

In this week’s episode, Ash sits down with Jodi Clark, a business mentor and alcohol-free coach, to discuss her journey towards sobriety and self-discovery.

Jodi shares how it was actually a 100-day weight-loss challenge that motivated her to go alcohol free, yet after seeing the positive impact it had on her mental health and relationships, she decided to stay sober for good. In this conversation, Jodi shares her transformative journey towards sobriety, discussing the profound impact it has had on her self-esteem, relationships, and overall quality of life.

Along her journey, Jodi has built a community supporting other women to go alcohol free and reflects openly on the challenges of balancing work and family life while pursuing her passion for helping others. Jodi also highlights the significance of vulnerability and authenticity in her journey, encouraging listeners to embrace their own paths to wellness.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Jodie Clark and Her Journey

02:56 Daily Life and Finding Joy in Work

06:03 Setting Intentions for the New Year

08:58 Hiding Behind a Smile: Jodie's Photo Reflection

11:59 The Impact of Alcohol on Jodie's Life

15:02 The Turning Point: A Hundred Day Challenge

17:57 The Journey to Sobriety and Self-Discovery

26:58 Transformative Journey: The Impact of Sobriety

33:12 Building Self-Esteem Through Sobriety

39:04 Creating a Supportive Community: SoberFlourish

45:05 Navigating Life's Challenges: Balancing Work and Family

51:02 Embracing Vulnerability: Lessons from the Journey

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Ep 108. From Poverty to Purpose with Alex Crouch

Sun, 02 Feb 2025 18:00:00 GMT

In this latest episode, Ash has a deep conversation with psychotherapist Alex Crouch, who shares his journey of overcoming alcoholism and the impact it had on his life. Alex discusses his childhood experiences growing up in the USSR before moving to Australia, his struggles to fit in, and how alcohol became a coping mechanism. He reflects on the consequences of his addiction, the lessons learned and the impact he now wants to make in the world.

The conversation highlights the path to recovery, the significance of authenticity, and the ongoing journey of self-discovery and healing. The conversation also delves into men's mental health, the impact of societal pressures, and the complexities of relationships and self-esteem in recovery.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Authentic Living

02:57 Alex's Journey Through Addiction

05:48 The Impact of Alcohol on Identity

09:06 Consequences of Alcohol Abuse

11:58 Childhood Experiences and Their Influence

14:46 Family Dynamics and Addiction

17:51 The Search for Connection

20:54 Transitioning to Adulthood and Relationships

24:11 The Illusion of Happiness

26:52 Understanding Emotional Suppression

29:50 The Path to Recovery and Healing

31:42 The Journey to Recovery Begins

39:19 Understanding the Rock Bottom Experience

46:17 Men's Mental Health Crisis

54:08 Navigating Relationships and Self-Esteem

01:00:39 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

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Ep 107. Infidelity and Alcohol Addiction with Psychotherapist, Mel Watkins

Sun, 26 Jan 2025 18:00:00 GMT

In the latest episode of BTS, Ash speaks with Mel Watkins, a Psychotherapist specialising in addiction and mental health. Mel shares her personal journey of overcoming substance abuse, navigating relationships, and finding her purpose in helping others. The conversation delves into the complexities of addiction, the importance of self-care, and the impact of family dynamics on mental health. Mel's candid reflections on her past struggles and her path to sobriety provide valuable insights for anyone facing similar challenges.

In this conversation, Mel shares her journey from working in the heavy party culture of events to getting sober and the profound impact that’s had on all areas of her life. She discusses the cycles of infidelity and alcoholism, the complexities of love addiction, and the importance of self-compassion and seeking specialised support in recovery. She highlights the significance of surrounding oneself with positive influences and the necessity of understanding one's own needs for a fulfilling life.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Mel Watkins and Her Journey

02:59 Daily Life and Self-Care as a New Mom

05:53 Navigating Social Situations in Sobriety

09:07 Hiding Behind a Smile: Mel's Past Struggles

12:03 The Impact of Alcohol on Relationships

15:08 Realizations and Turning Points in Sobriety

18:04 The Journey to Becoming a Therapist

20:58 Childhood Experiences and Family Dynamics

23:54 The Complexity of Addiction in Family

27:03 Finding Purpose in Helping Others

37:11 Navigating Change: From Events to Mental Health Support

39:26 The Cycle of Infidelity and Alcoholism

43:42 Overcoming Infidelity: The Path to Sobriety

48:52 Understanding Love Addiction and Avoidance

56:56 Breaking the Cycle: Steps Towards Recovery

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Ep 106. Staying Sober Through Life’s Challenges, with Patrick Kennedy

Sun, 19 Jan 2025 16:00:00 GMT

In this week’s episode, Ash welcomes back Patrick Kennedy to hear how he’s been managing life’s ups and downs in sobriety since recording their last episode together 18 months ago.

They explore the challenges faced after the initial phase of sobriety, the importance of emotional health, and the significance of building connections within the recovery community. Patrick shares his experiences with daily routines, the impact of physical fitness, and his dabbling into breathwork.

Patrick opens up vulnerably around his recent journey through heartbreak, and how at 3 years sober, he once again found himself hiding behind a smile. Ash and Patrick also discuss the role of spirituality in recovery, and the ongoing struggle to trust your own thoughts.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction and Journey of Sobriety

03:09 The Reality of Recovery

05:58 Daily Life and New Discoveries

08:45 Building Connections in Recovery

12:05 Emotional Sobriety vs. Physical Sobriety

15:00 Finding Gratitude and Moving Forward

17:58 Breathwork and Emotional Release

20:56 Reflections on a Photo from the Past

27:27 Navigating Heartbreak and Public Appearances

32:41 The Role of Faith in Recovery

37:04 Trusting Your Own Thinking

44:25 The Importance of Connection and Community

47:14 Reflections on Early Sobriety

50:09 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

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Ep. 105 Parenting with Compassion: Jacintha Field on Self-Regulation and Emotional Healing

Sun, 12 Jan 2025 21:00:00 GMT

In this episode of Behind the Smiles, Ash engages in a heartfelt conversation with Jacintha Field, a family and child counselor, about her transformative journey through personal challenges, including divorce and parenting. Jacintha shares her experiences with mental health, the importance of self-love, and the tools she has developed to support children in emotional distress.

The discussion emphasizes the significance of boundaries, vulnerability, and the healing power of compassion, both for oneself and others. In this conversation, Ash Butterss discusses the complexities of parenting, particularly focusing on emotional regulation in children, the importance of self-worth, and the need for compassion and empathy in parenting. She emphasises the significance of allowing children to express their emotions, the necessity of setting boundaries, and the importance of self-regulation for parents. The discussion also touches on effective communication with children and the role of personal experiences in shaping parenting approaches.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Jacintha Field

02:25 Jacintha's Journey of Transformation

07:40 The Impact of Separation and Self-Discovery

13:22 Navigating Divorce and Parenting

15:20 Establishing Boundaries and Self-Care

22:19 Finding Strength in Vulnerability

26:09 Understanding Domestic Violence and Self-Worth

28:04 Emotional Regulation in Children

30:53 Compassion and Empathy in Parenting

33:09 Navigating Child Meltdowns

36:03 Communicating with Children as Adults

38:51 The Importance of Boundaries

41:39 Regulating Your Own Emotions as a Parent

46:23 Finding Inner Peace and Self-Compassion

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Ep. 104 Manifesting A Life Beyond Your Wildest Dreams, with Hayley Lloyd

Sun, 05 Jan 2025 18:00:00 GMT

To kick off season four of Behind The Smile, Ash welcomes Hayley Lloyd, a business and authority building mentor. Hayley shares her journey from a corporate hustler who struggled with substance abuse, to a successful seven-figure coach who is five years clean and sober. The conversation delves into Hayley's daily practices, the significance of visioning days for entrepreneurs, and her personal struggles with trauma and the facade of strength. Hayley reflects on her chaotic childhood and how it shaped her resilience and approach to life and business.

In this conversation, Hayley and Ash explore the profound impact of family dynamics on emotional development, the role of alcohol as a coping mechanism, and the aftermath of trauma. They discuss their journeys towards sobriety, the challenges faced in relationships during recovery, and the healing that comes through spiritual awakening. This chat emphasises the importance of addressing underlying emotions and the transformative power of self-acceptance and accountability. In this conversation, Hayley shares her transformative journey from alcoholism to sobriety, which awakened her spiritual gifts and led her to a deeper understanding of inner authority. She discusses the importance of authenticity in personal and professional life, the role of spiritual practices in her coaching, and the significance of maintaining meaningful connections. Hayley highlights the necessity of somatic work and breathwork in healing and personal growth, and she outlines her non-negotiables for living an authentic life.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Hayley Lloyd and Her Journey

06:11 The Importance of Visioning Days

12:03 The Impact of Childhood on Personal Strength

26:51 The Impact of Family Dynamics on Emotions

33:31 Experiencing Trauma and Its Aftermath

40:32 Navigating Relationships in Recovery

50:46 Awakening Spiritual Gifts Through Sobriety

57:20 Understanding Inner Authority

01:09:31 Non-Negotiables for an Authentic Life

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Ep. 103 Why New Years Resolutions Rarely Stick and What To Try Instead with Psychotherapist Diane Young

Sun, 29 Dec 2024 18:00:00 GMT

To kick off the New Year, I’m sitting down with Trauma and Addiction Specialist Diane Young to discuss all things New Year’s Resolutions!

In this conversation we explore the concept of setting intentions instead of New Year's resolutions and the benefits of taking small steps towards change. The conversation delves into the differences between heavy drinkers and grey area drinkers and the continuum of drinking behaviour. It also addresses the connection between childhood trauma and eating disorders, as well as the role of boundaries in relationships.

The episode highlights are:

03:23 Increased Awareness of Mental Health

05:15 Setting Intentions Instead of New Year's Resolutions

07:45 Taking Small Steps Towards Change

09:32 Differentiating Heavy Drinkers and Grey Area Drinkers

13:12 The Inner Knowing and Loneliness in Addiction

14:03 Understanding Heavy Drinkers and Grey Area Drinkers

18:27 The Continuum of Drinking Behavior

20:57 The Benefits of Alcohol-Free Challenges

23:06 The Impact of Alcohol on Mental Health

26:05 The Expansiveness of Recovery

27:28 The Connection Between Childhood Trauma and Eating Disorders

30:44 Setting Intentions for Food and Body Image

34:28 The Role of Sugar in Disordered Eating

36:50 Healing Childhood Trauma and Filling the Inner Void

38:07 The Impact of Childhood Trauma on Body Image

40:36 The Importance of Boundaries in Relationships

44:02 The Power of Self-Care and Self-First

49:47 Setting Intentions for the New Year

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Ep 102. SOLO EP: 37 Life Lessons that that have made a huge impact on my world!

Sun, 22 Dec 2024 18:00:00 GMT

It’s my birthday this week and I’m turning 37, so to celebrate I wanted to give you all a gift! In this week’s solo episode, I’m sharing with you all my 37 game changing lessons that have made a huge impact on my life!

These lessons span across all facets of the human experience including relationships, mindset, career and health. Of course, it wouldn’t be a Behind the Smile episode without discussing recovery, but these lessons are really applicable to anyone wanting to expand their mind and step into the very best version of themselves.

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If you or someone you know if struggling with mental health or addiction, please reach out for support. Some support options include:

•A healthcare professional

•Alcoholics Anonymous

•Lifeline or Beyond Blue (Australia)

•CheckPoint (global)

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Ep 101. Finding Inner Peace: The Journey of Emotional Regulation, with Amy Mason (The Unedited Woman Series)

Sun, 15 Dec 2024 18:00:00 GMT

Welcome to The Unedited Woman series! In this episode, Ash has a deep conversation with Emotional Regulation Coach Amy Mason. They explore the journey of self-discovery, the importance of emotional regulation, and the impact of relationships on personal well-being. Amy shares her transformative journey from a reactive lifestyle to one of conscious response, detailing her struggles with a long-term relationship and the physical manifestations of stress.

The conversation emphasises the need for self-reflection, the significance of inner peace, and the challenges of transitioning from a career in hairdressing to coaching. She discusses the challenges of leaving her salon, the discovery of breathwork, and how it has positively impacted her lifestyle choices, including giving up alcohol and caffeine and prioritising her health. The conversation also highlights the importance of self-care and the benefits of investing in yourself.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Emotional Regulation Coaching

03:00 Understanding Emotional Regulation

05:51 Amy's Journey: From Reactive to Responsive

09:10 Life Before Transformation: Relationships and Struggles

12:01 The Impact of Stress on Health

14:56 The Importance of Self-Reflection

17:47 The Breaking Point: Leaving a Long-Term Relationship

21:08 Navigating the Aftermath of a Breakup

24:01 Transitioning from Hairdressing to Coaching

27:06 The Role of Connection in the Beauty Industry

34:03 Navigating Life Changes and Career Transitions

36:52 Discovering Breathwork: A Life-Changing Journey

40:57 The Impact of Breathwork on Lifestyle Choices

44:13 Transforming Health: The Shift from Alcohol to Wellness

55:49 Creating a Retreat Experience: Nurture and Nourish

01:00:52 Investing in Yourself: The Importance of Self-Care

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Ep 100. How Breathwork Helped Me Breakthrough (The Unedited Woman Series)

Wed, 11 Dec 2024 18:00:00 GMT

Welcome to The Unedited Woman series! In this episode, Ash shares her transformative experience attending a breathwork facilitator training in the Snowy Mountains. She discusses her initial scepticism towards breathwork, her journey of discovery, and the profound impact it has had on her life. Ash delves into the science behind breathwork, explaining how it can heal emotional trauma, improve overall wellness, and enhance focus. She emphasises the importance of breathwork in personal transformation and invites listeners to explore this powerful practice for themselves.

Episode highlights include:

00:00 Transformative Breathwork Experience

05:00 The Science Behind Breathwork

24:08 Emotional and Physical Healing Through Breathwork

34:52 Breathwork as a Tool for Transformation

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Ep 99. How to Embody and Befriend Your Nervous System, with Danni Carr (The Unedited Woman Series)

Mon, 09 Dec 2024 18:00:00 GMT

Welcome to The Unedited Woman series! In this episode, Ash welcomes Danni Carr for a heartfelt conversation about nervous system regulation, personal growth, and their upcoming workshops and retreats. They discuss the importance of understanding one's nervous system, the benefits of practices like yoga nidra, and how these tools can enhance relationships and overall well-being. Danni shares her journey of sobriety and the insights gained from her experiences, emphasising the significance of self-awareness and emotional regulation. The episode concludes with an exciting announcement about their upcoming retreat in Bali and the release of Danni’s new book, 'How I Quit Alcohol.'

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to The Unedited Woman Podcast

02:34 Exploring the Nervous System Workshops

07:55 Danni's Journey to Nervous System Regulation

12:39 The Importance of Body Awareness

18:06 Yoga Nidra: A Path to Inner Peace

19:56 Who Can Benefit from Nervous System Workshops?

26:01 The Impact of Nervous System Regulation on Relationships

31:45 Announcing the Nervous System Reset Retreat

33:10 Danni’s Book Release: How I Quit Alcohol

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Ep 98. Discovering Your Purpose Through Human Design, with Aviva Joffe (The Unedited Woman Series)

Sat, 07 Dec 2024 18:00:00 GMT

Welcome to The Unedited Woman series! In today’s episode, Ash is having her Human Design chart read live on the podcast.

Ash is joined by Human Design expert Aviva Joffe to explore the transformative power of human design. They discuss the origins of human design, Aviva's personal journey into this field, and the significance of understanding one's energy type. The conversation delves deeper as Aviva reads Ash’s Human Design chart live on the podcast, highlighting the importance of self-care, setting boundaries, and trusting one's intuition. Aviva shares insights on how to navigate decisions using the sacral response and the impact of emotional awareness on personal growth. Finally, Ash gets emotional as she discovers her life’s mission for helping other women is in perfect alignment with her chart.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Human Design

03:11 Understanding Human Design and Its Origins

05:48 Aviva's Journey to Human Design

08:54 Energy Types in Human Design

12:08 The Role of Generators and Projectors

14:50 Self-Care and Boundaries

17:59 The Importance of Following Your Sacral Response

21:08 Navigating Decisions and Trusting Your Gut

23:54 Emotional Awareness and Empathy

27:09 The Significance of Defined Energy Centers

29:59 Self-Love and Life Purpose

32:49 Conclusion and Resources

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Ep 97. Sharing my Engagement Story (The Unedited Woman Series)

Thu, 05 Dec 2024 18:00:00 GMT

Welcome to The Unedited Woman series! In today’s episode, Ash is sharing her recent engagement story. She discusses the story of how she met her fiancé and the beautiful moment of their engagement. Ash also delves into the importance of self-worth and how to reframe negative self-talk through mindfulness, affirmation practices, and gratitude. She highlights the power of neuroplasticity and the ability to rewire our thinking. The Radiant Woman event focused on physical transformation, skincare, makeup, and empowering women to rebuild their self-worth. Ash emphasises the importance of self-love and treating oneself with kindness and respect.

Episode highlights include:

00:00 Introduction and Engagement Announcement

13:12 The Radiant Woman Event: Empowering Women

21:26 Rewiring Negative Self-Talk and Practicing Mindfulness

25:32 The Importance of Self-Worth and Self-Love

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Ep 96. Preventing Burnout through Breath (The Unedited Woman Series)

Tue, 03 Dec 2024 18:00:00 GMT

Welcome to The Unedited Woman series! In today’s episode, Ash is sharing an episode with you around the importance of mindfulness and its role in avoiding burnout. She highlights the high levels of stress experienced by women and the need to prioritise self-care. Ash explains that mindfulness is a practice that can regulate emotions and the nervous system, leading to improved mental clarity and overall well-being. She shares three breath practices - diaphragmatic breath, box breath, and alternate nostril breath - that can be incorporated into a mindfulness practice. Ash emphasises that mindfulness is a powerful tool for navigating the chaos of everyday life and unleashing one's true potential.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 - Introduction: Mindfulness and Avoiding Burnout

02:51 - Mindfulness as a Foundation for Transformation

08:01 - The Importance of Physical Transformation

10:19 - The Challenge of Change and Breaking Patterns

12:24 - Emotional Transformation through Mindfulness

20:06 - Physiological Response to Mindfulness

23:27 - Breath Practices for Mindfulness

31:29 - The Practice of Meditation and Noticing Distractions

33:41 - Conclusion: Mindfulness as an Anchor

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Ep. 95 I'm Coming Home: The Podcast Relaunch

Sun, 01 Dec 2024 18:00:00 GMT

In this episode of Behind the Smile, Ash Butterss returns to share her journey of transformation and the importance of authentic conversations about mental health, trauma, and addiction. She reflects on her time away from the podcast, the lessons learned, and her commitment to creating a space for meaningful connections. Ash highlights the significance of trusting oneself, embracing the messiness of life, and the excitement of new beginnings as she prepares to relaunch the podcast with fresh content and guests.

Over the next few weeks’ Ash will be sharing some of her favourite episodes from her other podcast The Unedited Woman, to bring you all up to date on what she’s been doing. Then we’ll be kicking off brand new episodes in January.

For those returning listeners, welcome home. And to all of those who are new, thanks for being here!

Chapters

00:00 Welcome Back to Behind the Smile

02:57 The Journey of Transformation and Self-Discovery

05:45 The Importance of Authentic Conversations

09:08 Trusting Yourself and Your Intuition

11:53 Embracing the Messiness of Life

15:11 Looking Ahead: New Beginnings and Exciting Changes

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