About me: My art expresses the intricacies of being alive: the magic and beauty of existence, the wisdom and mysticism to be found in nature, and my own story as a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. I create paintings, drawings, and mixed media works that embody healing, vulnerability, duality, emotion, and humanity. I also write and make music from my soul. I release my music under a name I gave myself, Alice Celeste.

Explore my art and music at nicolejavorsky.com. Find more stories for the soul at chickendoodlesoupster.com.

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1. Pre-save "from infinity" on Spotify here. Comes out February 28th!
2. Find me on Instagram @nicolieolieart @alicecelestemusic

About me: My art expresses the intricacies of being alive: the magic and beauty of existence, the wisdom and mysticism to be found in nature, and my own story as a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. I create paintings, drawings, and mixed media works that embody healing, vulnerability, duality, emotion, and humanity. I also write and make music from my soul. I release my music under a name I gave myself, Alice Celeste.

Explore my art and music at nicolejavorsky.com. Find more stories for the soul at chickendoodlesoupster.com.

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Grief feels like sitting cross-legged on the ocean floor, still alive, still breathing. And I sit here at the bottom of the ocean waiting for nothing. Just existing. Just feeling. Just watching the glimpse of sunlight as it dances on the surface, miles and miles away. I’ll swim up again. Just not now. Now, I rest. Now, I take in the depths.

Grief pulls me deep down under and I let it. Because I get it now. I won’t be crushed under the weight of its reality. I let myself be carried down, down, down. And I stay here as long as I need.

Bottom of the sea.

Sometimes, regular speech doesn't do the feeling justice. Sometimes, we must speak and listen through poetry, through art. To truly say it. To truly hear it. To reach the depths. To say it like you really mean it. To take in the gravity, the depth.

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1. Find me on Instagram @nicolieolieart
2. Thank you for being a part of my art community! Let's keep digging together :)

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We don’t have to know in order to find meaning, purpose, or joy in our existence. And we can choose to remain open to what’s unknown. Often, it’s that openness that leaves enough space for magic to happen, to feel touched by something that evades description.

Yet, exploring the magic of existence isn’t all butterflies and glistening ocean waves. It's not all light. There is magic in moving through the darkness. And when I say there’s beauty in struggle, I don’t mean that it always feels beautiful.

More episode notes:

1. Chicken Doodle Soup website is chickendoodlesoupster.com
2. Art website where you can find "Hanging by a thread, I survived. Now, I live." is nicolejavorsky.com
3. My music is under the name Alice Celeste
4. If you hear meowing in the background, that's my cat Milo making a cameo! :)

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